The Adorable Casanova

Wounded Heart

"What happened, Pha?" asked Forth almost in a whisper. He had closed the door to Beam's room, but was still worried that Beam would overhear their conversation.

"I heard this news from her cousin who studies the Arts departement-Nong Mai. Beam's mother had an accident and is now in critical condition. She is in a coma," Phana replied worriedly. "Nong Mai told Beam."

"Damn! Beam must be shocked."

"The problem is, Beam really hates his mother," said Phana. "I don't know how he responded to this news, then you called me."

"That's a little strange in my opinion. Beam cried and apologized to me, but his eyes were very empty."

Phana was deep in thought. He tried to guess what Beam was going through. Phana knows that Beam hates his mother a lot. The woman always said that Beam was a burden to her and she regretted not aborting Beam while he was still a fetus. She often beat Beam as a child and after Beam was an adult, beat him even more with her mean words.

Beam's life actually started to improve after his parents divorced. Nobody wanted Beam, so he lived with his paternal grandmother. Beam's grandmother loved and pampered Beam, but two years later, his grandmother died and Beam has been completely alone ever since.

Phana once found Beam nearly passed out at his house because he was too lazy to eat alone. Since then, Phana and Kit have always tried to accompany Beam, together or take turns.

When Preya was beating Beam, Phana and Kit almost lost Beam because he tried to kill himself by taking sleeping pills. Beam had to undergo treatment to treat his depression for three months in the hospital. Fortunately, his brain is smart, so he can finish high school with good grades and be accepted into medical school.

Beam has inherited money from his grandmother, and more than enough to pay for his living and studying.

His mother, knowing about it, undermines Beam and blackmails him. Beam ends up looking for a scholarship to pay for his college. His good grades and the condition of his family earned Beam a scholarship from the GLJ foundation.

In his early second year, Beam tries to jump off the hotel roof, because his mother blackmails Beam with the threat of suicide in front of Beam. He was tired being beaten and he gave everything he had and tried to killed himself again. A man saved and took care of him.

"I thought, he might feel upset. He might be happy to hear what happened to his mother, because of the suffering he went through since he was a child, but in his heart he felt guilty because after all the woman was the one who gave birth to him," said Phana slowly.

"Oh God, I do not understand how physically and mentally strong he endured all the terrible things that happened to him. I wish I could take half of his suffering," growled Forth angrily.

Phana patted Forth's shoulder softly. "You really like Beam?"

Forth shook his head. "Not just like it, Pha. I love him very deeply now. I will do anything for him so that he can be happy."

"Are you sure?"

"I even propose him to marry me, but he doesn't answer."

"That's because he still has a secret and you should hear it from Beam yourself when he gets better. That secret might change you and Beam's relationship, that's why he can't answer you until he tells you about the secret. "

"Why is it so complicated," Forth sighed. "I'll wait until Beam is ready to say everything, even his darkest secrets."

"You're not going to ask me to tell you what he's keeping?" Phana asked teasingly.

"No. We're both men. I wouldn't be a coward by impatiently waiting for him to tell his secret myself. I won't make you an untrustworthy friend, either."

Phana stood up and walked to the door of Beam's apartment. He asked Fort to high five. "I know, I can trust you to look after and love Beam more than Kit and I can do. You're a great man for him. Be patient in a little while. Anyway, you better persuade Beam to meet his mother in the hospital. He needs to settle down with the wound to heal. "

"I think so too. We don't know what will happen to his mother, but Beam is still too young to be hurt all the time. I'll look after him from now on, from whoever tries to hurt him again. Even from you and Kit, and myself. "

"I know you can do that. Tell me everything about his condition, Bro. I will always wait for the news from you."

"Sure. I will inform you everything."

Forth checks Beam's state in the room after Phana leaves. Beam is still sleeping, restless and constantly moving. His forehead was wet with sweat. Forth slipped himself next to Beam and hugged the beautiful man to his chest while humming softly.

Beam opened his eyes and saw Forth's broad chest. He looked up and his eyes met Forth's eyes who looked at him with love and his soft smile.

"Hai, love. Are you awake."

Beam smiled thinly. Forth pecked on Beam's hair, forehead, nose, cheek, and lip. Beam nibbled on Forth's lip for a while.

"Forth, can you help me?" asked Beam.

"Of course, Baby. Tell me what do you want me to do?"

"Heal me."

"Of course I will. What can I do about it? Tell and I will do whatever I can."

"Make me a new person who deserves to be loved properly. Clean up all the evil and dirty things on me. I love you, Forth, and even if your love for me is only half as much as I feel for you, I will still ask you to do it," said Beam, crying.

"Don't cry, love, I will do anything for you, even if you want to ask me to kill the person who hurt you. Tell me what you want me to do."

"Forth ... "

"Yes, love?"

"Make love to me. Make love to me good."

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