The Adorable Casanova

I Forgive All

Beam stood stiffly on the side of the bed, his eyes blankly staring at the body stretched out on the bed. Forth touched Beam's shoulder and squeezed gently. He put Beam on a chair and leaned over to kiss him on the lips. "I'll be waiting outside."

Beam took Forth's hand and looked up. Her eyes filled with tears. "F-Forth, can we just go home?"

Foth let go of Beam's hand and knelt before him. He hugged Beam and kissed his forehead. "No, Love, we've talked about this, haven't we? Talk to her, whatever, or just shut up and keep her company. I'll be waiting for you, always. Be brave, Love. You can do it."

Beam bit his lip and looked at Forth, looking for courage from his lover's big beautiful eyes. He nodded and kissed Forth's lips deeply. He smiled when Forth returned his kiss.

Forth stroked Beam's lips with his thumb and stood up, came out of Beam's mother ward and closed the door behind him.

Beam sat still, only looking at his mother's body, which was covered in bandages. His mind was filled with memories of the past, and tears rolled down his cheeks, silently.

The only beautiful thing in Beam's memory about his mother was when she hugged him, when Beam turned seven, and gave him a little teddy bear that at Beam's ten years, she snatched and threw into the fireplace, making Beam cry all day long, scavenging ashes in the fireplace.

His mother had to stop working because little Beam was weak and sickly. It frustrated and annoyed her. She doesn't like to stay at home and only takes care of a child who is sick. She is still young and wants a career, to achieve his dreams as high as possible. Beam is a burden for her.

The anger, beatings and the occasional hunger, Beam endured not just once or twice. Her mother never loved Beam. In fact, Phana and Kit's parents loved and cared more about Beam than their parents.

Divorce, more abuse and eventually Beam officially banished. His grandmother came to take care of Beam, loved and cherished Beam for a few moments that Beam will never forget. The love given by his grandmother slowly began to heal Beam's heartache caused by his parents, but his grandmother was sick and old. When his grandmother died, then his mother returned only to steal his inheritance, at that time Beam swore to himself that he would never open his heart again.

Beam took a deep breath, trying to erase his thoughts. He only intended to stand up when his mother's hand moved. Beam was stunned.

"Don't go," his mother whispered with difficulty. "Stay."

Beam looked at his mother and sat back again in the chair. His mother kept holding Beam's hand and her dim eyes couldn't help but stare at Beam.

Time is like stopping for Beam. He looked at his mother's face, and when he saw the tears streaming down the corners of her eyes, he couldn't help but sob. The woman moved her lips slowly, speaking silently. She squeezed Beam's hand firmly and said, "Ba-Baby, I'm sorry."

Cry Beam exploded. Her mother's hands went limp and the woman closed her eyes. Her tears were still flowing as she breathed her last.

Forth is on the phone with Phana and sending a group message to his friends when he hears Beam's cry and the monotonous sound of a heart monitor. He saw Beam looking down on the seat atss with his body shaking. Forth pulls Beam into a hug, while doctors and nurses take care of Beam's mother.

"Beam."

Phana and Kit arrived with Wayo and Kit not long after. They hugged Beam tightly while crying. Park, Lam, Max and Tul come together. They brought flowers and hugged Beam and Forth too.

The funeral process took place quickly after that. Beam insisted on not having any ceremonies. After his grandmother passed away, his mother was automatically an orphan. No relative should be invited to grieve. Her mother has traveled a difficult path in her life, and Beam doesn't know anyone close to her. Beam only ran a small ad in the newspaper about his mother's death.

One man came to the funeral, six days after his mother was buried. Beam with Forth comes to replace the flower on the grave. He looked at the man without saying anything, then put down the flower.

"Beam ...," The man called.

"Thank you for coming," Beam cutted the man's word. "Its over now. We are over. I have cut every bond between us since she was passed away. Now we can continue our life, completely separate."

"Beam, please forgive me. Forgive us," the man cried in silent. "I had so many mistakes to your mother, to you. Forgive me."

Beam smiled thinly and nodded. He hold Forth's hand. "Don't worry. I have forgive her, and you too. It mean, I will let you go, as I let her go. Let us live our live, in our way, hope never cross each other again."

Forth nodded to the man and followed Beam. They reached the car. Beam sat still in passanger seat. His tear lingering on the corner of his eyes.

Forth pulled Beam to his embrace and Beam burst in sobbing.

"Its ok, Baby, its ok. Everything will be allright from now on."

"Oh, Forth, with all the messed in my life, do you still want me to be yours?"

"Love, i always want you, not your parents nor your past. I want you, yourself. You are my everything. Don't you dare questioned my love for you."

Beam whiped his eyes and looked at Forth. He leaned on Forth and landed a kissed to Forth. A passionate kissed.

Forth carresed Beam's cheek and deepened the kissed.

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