A wise woman once told me "sometimes there's people that you think will always be there and they chase your dreams with you but the moment you get too far ahead in life they pull you down by your coat tail, back down to their level." She told me "they want you down on their level at all times because if you get too far ahead they know you'll figure out you can do better with or without them." My Nana told me this as I was explaining to her what was going on with you and I. My best friend of 15 years, the person she probably heard the most about. This is the woman I look to the most for life advice. She told me "it's part of growing up, learning who's going to chase your dreams with you and who's gonna pull you down."
You pulled me down.
And when she spoke these wise words to me.
It hit home a little too much.
You're a dream chaser.
15 years of friendship, all gone because I made decisions that helped me advance in life.
You didn't like that.
You didn't seem to like that I was advancing so fast.
You didn't like that I stayed with this boy because I knew things would work out.
You didn't like that I kept staying and kept forgiving him because, I knew in the back of my head he only had my best interest in mind.
I knew he was helping me advance in life.
That's exactly what he has done.
I guess you didn't like that.
I have changed a lot about my goals and my future because of him but it's been for the best.
All you saw was him holding me back and being controlling.
It wasn't like that at all.
I tried to explain that to you until my face turned blue.
You never understood that he was just bringing reality into my life.
No one has ever shown me reality and the real world like he has.
I guess you didn't like that.
15 years of friendship down the drain because I became an adult, and you still can't figure it out.
You're a dream chaser.
You hyped me up and supported me with all my dreams.
Yet, the minute I was brought into reality and changed my life to fit the real world you disagreed.
I'm so sorry I have made decisions to better my future.
I'm sorry I haven't moved yet like I said I was going to.
I'm sorry I have become an adult without you.
However, if you can't support me and all you bring is jealously, envy and negativity into my life then I must say goodbye.
I must say goodbye to 15 years of memories.
All because I grew up.
All because of a boy.
All because of decisions that have helped me advance in life.
All because of reality.
Hate me if you will.
Post on social media about how you are so angry and how stupid I look in your eyes.
Talk bad about me.
Drag my name through the dirt for all I care.
All I know is I'm happy.
I'm excited to see where this new chapter is going to bring me.
I am very happy with my decisions.
Things are working out in my favor.
I'm sorry it's not the same for you.
I wish you the best.
I will always cherish our memories.
I still plan to tell my children about you.
I will tell them about my best friend and all the adventures we endured.
I will also use our friendship as a lesson to them.
A lesson about dream chasers.
A lesson of love and hate of sadness and happiness.
A lesson of all the moments of a friendship that ended badly.
All over childish things.
I hate to say you were a lesson.
I always planned on you being in my life forever.
You were gonna be my kids auntie Lecia.
I guess thats gone now.
All because of the real world.
All I can say is I'll miss the times we've had.
I'll cherish everything we've been through.
Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for the lessons.
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for being a friend.
However, I am chasing my dreams and I can't have a dram chaser on my coat tail pulling me down to lower levels at all times.
I will never be a drop out stoner like you've become and are oddly okay with being.
I'm sorry but I know my worth.
I know I can do so much better than that.
I know I have a lot of opportunities in front of me.
I'm choosing to take them.
It took 15 years of growing together and loving each other to learn you were only there as a lesson.
A sad, hard, truthful lesson.
Little did I know.
I hope you chase your dreams and become a lot more than you are now because I've never seen you so low.
I hope you the best.
Chase your dreams and I'll chase mine.
Goodbye to my dream chaser.
I will let you go now.
Goodbye.
