[Unorthodox Desire]Megumi Fushiguro x fem reader

Panic Attacks

I'm gonna put a little fluff in here before I get into more angst. Enjoy Megumi helping you with a panic attack :)

Y/n pov

8:39 pm

If I had to pick a word to describe what I was feeling it would be uneasy. Sick to my stomach and staring at the empty box that once held a beautiful blade. Flashes of memories ran through my head. The pain, the blood, the thoughts were intoxicating my mind like a poison I had been infected with.

Throwing the box down in anger I felt the familiar sensation at the pit of my stomach. It only seemed to get worse as I realized my fate. I began to push down my panic with long and deep breathes praying to god it would make that stupid feeling go away. But alas, my heart raced and my head spun.

It's not working! I raised a hand in front of my face. Shit, I'm shaking. The thought disappears as fast as it came, my mind now focused on images of past episodes. I began to curse under my breath.

"Fuck, what's even wrong with me?" I muttered as I crumbled to the ground, gripping the leg of my desk for support. I squeezed my eyes shut as more thoughts replayed in my mind. Why does Megumi even like me? I'm nothing but a burden. 

My head seemed to be in two. Half of me was sure that Megumi liked every part of me and didn't think I was a burden. But the other half was hell-bent on making me believe I was horrible in every way. That's when I remembered Megumis's words from the night before. 

"I'm here for you, okay?" 

I fumbled for my phone in my pocket calling Megumi before I even had the chance to think about it. 

"Hello?" 

"H-hey." I stuttered. 

"Are you alright, y/n?" His voice was worried and I heard him moving through the phone. 

"Not really," I replied, wiping a stray tear from my face. 

"Do you want me to come over?" 

"Y-yes please." 

"Okay, I'm coming just hold on until I get there." There was rustling on his end, signaling that he was leaving his dorm. 

"O-okay." He hung up and I choked back a sob. Shakily, I stood and stumbled over to the door waiting patiently for him to arrive. Just hold on until he gets here. I can do this. Please hurry, Megumi. 

Minutes passed, though it felt like hours, and eventually there was a solid knock on the door. I opened it with shaky hands and saw Megumi standing there, a worried look on his face. His eyes widened when he saw me and he immediately engulfed me in a hug. 

"Let's sit down." He said as he started to walk me backward, still in his arms. He turned me around before we got to the bed and sat down pulling me down next to him. I buried my face in his neck, clenching his shirt in my shaking fists. 

"I'm sorry." I cried. 

"There's nothing to be sorry about." He said softly as he placed his hand on the back of my head, stroking my hair in a comforting way. "I know it's hard but you'll get through this." 

I sobbed harder as he said this. "You're lying!" I yelled squeezing my already shut eyes as hard as could. 

"I'm not. I promise that you will be okay eventually. No matter how hard it gets I'll always be here to help you through." He murmured. 

After a few minutes of my still crying and shaking I calmed down enough to pull away. 

"I'm sorry you have to see me like this," I said as I wiped my face with the back of my hand. 

"While it does hurt me to see you in pain, I would much rather comfort you through it than to do nothing at all." His tone was soft and he pulled me close to him. "Just remember I'm always here when you need me. Don't ever hesitate to call me when you need help." He gave me a quick kiss before pulling me back into a hug. 

"You're too good for me," I mumbled into his shirt. 

"No, I'm just right for you." He replied, i smiled and let out a small giggle. 

"Okay." 

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