[Unorthodox Desire]Megumi Fushiguro x fem reader

WHO WANTS ME TO WRITE FOR THEM?!

YO WHATS UP MY HOES

Im writing this in a manic state of mind and I'm definitely not fucking heartbroken and trying to get over someone who doesn't want me. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat? that couldn't be me, idk what you're talking about. 

anyways long rant and then ill give you some hookups for some possible spicy spicy. READ MY ANIME ONE-SHOTS BOOK. I TAKE REQUESTS. (THE HORNY ONES TOO, I got chu baby <3)

vent/rant/bitching start (You can defo skip dw abt it)

Alright, so I risk everything for someone right. and I tell them I love them every day and all this shit. I cut ties with people, I do things I promised id never do, etc, etc. I fall into a fucking sickening strong love and obsession with them. And the whole time they're saying they love me too and they're so happy that I confessed feelings for them, that I make them so flustered, whatever whatever. I invite them over to a party for Halloween, they come. A big group of us ends up watching a horror movie. The whole time me and this person are sitting in the same seat, my hand on their thigh. They tell me they want me. They tell me they're horny. Ask me to do more to them. We're engaging in risky sexual behavior in front of all my other friends, my fucking brother, my brother's friends, and MY MOM. And don't get me wrong I was totally down for it at the time. This was a consensual thing yk, they didn't get horny very often, I'm hypersexual, the fact that we were even doing something made me very very happy. Okay so risky behavior dies down, the movie ends more uh interesting things happen, long story short the party is over and I'm texting them after. K this person is telling me all kinds of things, like fuck you're so hot, god I want you, I regret not kissing you. Shit like that. All right they ask me to get off and moan their name while doing it that night. i do just that, in fact, I experience things I never had before. I came, finished, orgasmed whatever the fuck you wanna call it for THE FIRST TIME while thinking of them. I'm so happy I think I'm gonna die from joy, I go to bed thinking about them, and I dream of them too. 

the next day comes and they're dry as fuck. They're cold to me, barely talk and when they do they give me these one-word answers and sarcastic replies. i ask them if they regret what happened the night before, they dodge the question and we go the whole day in a very awkward and dry communication. I cry real hard in the shower that night. The next day again, they tell me they can't love me, they thought they could try for me but they couldn't. They don't want romantic or sexual relations with me anymore. I'm fucking heartbroken. They tell me they regretted what happened at the party. we sort of go into this pitiful conversation where we want to talk to each other but are aware that I'm literally on the verge of having a breakdown. eventually, night comes and suddenly we're 'just friends' and I'm crying in the shower,  wondering wtf I did wrong. I almost killed myself that night, but I didn't want to make the person feel guilty. 

maybe a week passes and this person comes to me saying they need help because they're interested in someone. Because they want to show their appreciation for someone. I help them get a new lover. I say I'm happy for them. Now they're dating this person, something they never did for me, something they wouldn't do for me. I guess what hurts the most is the fact that they could change they just didn't want to change for me. 

Vent/rant/bitching end

alright alright I'm done. 

Anywho I got another book, and if you simp for characters I know about, I'll write for you! yes, I'll even do megumi requests. ALL OF THE ABOVE. GAY, STRAIGHT, GENDER-NEUTRAL, TRANS. I GOT CHU. I don't even go by she/her pronouns anymore and I literally wrote this book to help me. TT anyway i write to cope and I damn sure need some coping. Why not ask if you guys want some help too. 

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That's it that's my shameless self-promo and vent lmao. 

I wish you all the best and have a lovely lovely day my beautiful readers <3333

thank you for reading 

-CIN