Love Can Suck My Soul Dick

Crazy

It's been a week. Since he's left. I have cut everyone out. Not even George can make me smile at this point. The only thing that would make me happy is if I finally got to yell at Sydney. We haven't been having classes, well, we have but only Hermione and some nerds go. I cant look at myself in the mirror because if I did, all I can see is that hurt look on Cedric's face, the moment of realization I could have stopped. And I tried I really did. That doesn't change the fact that when I looked in the mirror all I could see was a murderer. And If Sydney ever shows their face again. That's still all I'll see. I get up in the common room, and in my pajamas, I head to check on Madie. They're still in their room. Still not talking to anyone, I leave breakfast on her doorstep and walk away, while grabbing my disposable vape. I start smoking, and let's just say when I'm high, I react.

I walk into the great hall for breakfast and see Sydney reading the letter. The letter Cedric told me about.

Don't react

Don't react

"Hey, look it's the girl with the dead crush, how's it feel, you know I could treat you better if you ju-'' one of the Ravenclaw boys walked up to me.

"Go away" I interrupted him

"He had a girlfriend, who cheated on him, I'm basically a Ravenclaw Ceddy boy" he continued

"Last warning, Shut up," I say, I don't know who he is, all I know is that he's getting on my last nerve.

"You know maybe you could have had a chance with him, sorry he died, now to open up your options" he laughed cockily and placed his hand on my ass.

"First of all, YOU ARE NOTHING LIKE CEDRIC DIGGORY. He was a nice, brave, and RESPECTED women, second, you wish you had a chance with me. The third I'm taken, and I'm not in love with Cedric, fourth just Shut it, just because you got nothing better to do than be a man whore, doesn't mean every woman you hit on will comply." I say grabbing his arm off my ass, twisting it, and kicking him in the balls.

"Stay the fuck away from me," I say leaving him on the ground. I try walking away but the pent-up anger inside me walks to Sydney, in a complete haze.

"You don't deserve that letter." I mutter walking by, seeing they heard me I just start talking "You know, you cheat on him, get him killed, and still have the nerve to walk down here and threaten someone." I laugh. 

WHY AM I LAUGHING

I can't think straight. 

"Look Em, I really don't want to fight," they say standing up

"Oh but I do, you're a cheating lying bitch, and Cedric didn't deserve that, hell maybe if he didn't date a cheater he would still be alive, or maybe if you loved him the way he loved you, you don't even know the constant rambling about you, and at first it hurt. But it didn't anymore. BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOOD FOR HIM. maybe if he wasn't distracted by the fact the person he loved most CHEATED on him, he would still be alive, how does it feel. To kill someone." I smile, GODRICK NO I CANNOT BE SMILING.

"Oh shut the fuck up. Just because you were in love with him and he loved me, doesn't give you the right to tell me that I didn't love him, because I did. I love him more than anything, he was the best thing in my life, and I would have ever taken him for granted. That picture was taken months ago, before me and Cedric even started dating. I was playing truth or dare with the Slytherin and Theo dared me to make out with Draco. So I did. I'm not a pussy, and I don't make excuses. Now stop being such a selfish bitch and acting like you are the only one affected by my boyfriend's death." I can't really hear them, but I know they didn't just bring up I had a crush on Cedric in front of George. His face falls for a minute, Making me angrier.