i can't escape it

i guess this is me

i can't stop thinking about it. i want to distract myself but i can't. everytime i feel my stomach it just reminds me of the habit i can't escape. the worst part is, they don't even notice, the way i look at the plate on the table. The way i drink water to make the hunger go away, but it's not the hunger anymore. it's just the way i live. i make excuses to eat. i don't need the food i eat. i didn't even like the cereal i binged last night.

(this was the dialogue i guess)