Letter To My Lover [L.S]

20 days

My love,

The reality of seeing you in few days is finally settling in. I can't believe you guys have already started the wedding preparations. I wish I would have been there to see it unfold before my own eyes but I will be there soon.

Thank God Lottie is looking over the colour scheme because Louis don't get me wrong, I love you so much but not this much to ruin our wedding's color theme, you really are bad at that. Please have Gemma do the flowers not Zayn, he is just like you. You both friends don't know anything about these things. And Louis, please rest for sometime. Don't over work yourself. And I would say you to have proper sleep at night but I can't do that either. The excitement is just too much. I even woke Liam up one night just so that I can tell him that I'm so happy to finally marry you (that didn't end good). Yes, I have already invited him to our wedding and he is also excited about it. I told him to bring his girlfriend. Oh and it reminds me.. Zayn finally have someone huh? Good for him that he won't be third wheeling us again. Niall has been a great friend to you hasn't he? Such a nice lad he is.

Louis, it isn't weird that you are feeling nervous, you don't know how relieved I felt reading those lines because I have been feeling the same. My hands have been shaking thinking about finally seeing you. So many thoughts are running through my mind and my heart picks up just by thinking about kissing your lips again, tasting you again. I keep telling myself that it is only you, Louis, my Louis, but at the same time it isn't, you know? Its been too long since we last saw each other, since I memorized your beautiful face. Since I last held onto your hand and buried my face in your neck, inhaling your familiar smell. I don't even know if you will recognize me in this new hairstyle. In my short hair. But then I know you will, because it's you, who even knows my steps and my smell, so how could you not? You could recognize me anywhere in a heartbeat even in the most crowded places, like you say.

The adrenaline of everything is just too much. Just one flight and then I would have everything. I will be coming back from 'flight-128'.

I won't lie that I'm afraid. But I know it is going to be okay, it has to be. It has been this long. I have kept your promise, I have kept myself safe for this long and I promise to continue to do so until I'm back home in your arms, from there on I'm yours to keep. I love you more than I have words. I have loved you every day, every hour, every minute, every second with my each breath. And I promise to continue to love you as long as I can.

Lou, my Lou, this will be my last letter to you, my last way to tell you that I'm madly in love with you like this because the next time I would be with you, whispering in your ear my 'i love yous'. 20 days.

Always have been yours,
Haz.
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