A Year Of Confusion (Lily Evans x Reader)

Chapter One

   For as long as I can remember I've been with my parents, that is untill last year when they died at the hands of the dark lord, making me move in with my best friend James Potter. Him and I had been friends since birth, you couldn't separate us. Not even when we went to Hogwarts and He meet Sirius, then Sirius, James and I where known as the troublesome three. Lily Evans, red hair like roses and green eyes like emeralds, almost every boy at hogwarts wanted her. making it almost impossible for me to ever tell her how I feel. Not to mention she was my third best friend, and I was scared it would ruin our friendships. The only person I could confined to about my crush an evans was Remus. He's the only one that understands how I felt, James was one of the many boys that liked Lily Evans and I didn't want to ruin our friendship either.

James and I where on our way to our last year at hogwarts. If I wasn't into girls I'd say he was attractive. With his messy brown hair and hazel brown eyes. "Clean yourself up James." His mother complained.

She looked a lot like James, her face shape and jaw structure. James has his dads messy brown hair and hazel brown eyes.

"How you doing y/n?" James asked. "I'm fine." I smiled, my y/e/c slowly changing to a light golden colour. James didn't notice this though and went back to goofing off.

I was silent while climbing onto the train, Lily followed me to the comportment. "Hey lily." James smiled. "I'm not siting here for you potter, I'm sitting here for y/n." She said and sat down next to me. My eyes had returned to there natural shad now and Remus was looking up from his book every now and again. "You ok y/n?" Lily asked. "Oh just fine." I smiled, my eyes returning to the gold colour. Lily turned her head slightly, but didn't say anything about it.

The rest of the train ride was filled with laughter from my friends and silents from me.

When we arrived we rode the boats back with the first years for nostalgic reasons, but I felt no joy. I was to lost in my own dark thoughts to think about anything happy. Drifting to my parents death. It didn't make since, what did they have that the dark lord wanted? I was pulled out of my thoughts by Remus. "You might be able to fool the others, but you can't fool me, whats up?" He asked. "It's just, There's two many unsolved pieces in my parents case, why did he want them. What did they have?" My eyes turned a deep dark ocean blue. "Don't think about that right now, right now is time for nostalgia." He smiled.

Sitting in the great hall we all waited for the first years to be sorted. Any Gryffindors I would clap for, but I was still half out of it. Remus would hit me to try and pull me out of my thoughts every once in a while, but then i would just go right back. By the time I was completely out of thought agin we where calling out the new head boy and head girl. McGonagall took Dumbledore's spot at the podium and began.
"Welcome our new Head Girl, Lily Evans!" She called and everyone clapped. Lily walked up and stood next to McGonagall, pinning her pin to her robs. "And our New Head Boy, James Potter!" Everyone clapped again, including lily, who was shocked that James of all people was Head Boy, But still happy that it was someone she was friends with. James stood next to lily, a smug smile on his face as he put on his pin.

Lily and James sat back down and the feast began. My eyes Where now a light blue and slowly retuning to there original colour. James was currently thinking about lily and Lily's mind was always blocked, something that made me crazy about her. "So, what out our plans for the last year?" James asked. "I wanted to pull on massive prank." Sirius smiled. Lily glared at James, But Before She said anything James did. "I'm head boy now, I have to be responsible." James said. "James Potter, Being responsible, Who poisoned you?" I asked playfully. James glared at me playfully and went back to eating.

We walked into the common room and took a set on the couch's and arm chairs. Lily sat on the couch, Remus sitting next to her and Sirius sitting next to him. James day in the arm chair while peter and I sat on the floor. "Hey Peter, How was your summer?" I asked and he smiled. "It was so much fun, Mum and Dad took me to a bunch of different places, how was yours?" Peter asked. "No!" "Oh it was lovely to." I smiled. My eyes returning to the gold colour. "I'm quite tired I think I'll be going to bed now." I smiled and walked to the dorm before anyone could say goodnight. Thankfully nobody was in the dorm so I could let my tears fall. "No!" "Get out of my head!" I Yelled. I gripped tightly at my hair and dug my head into my knees. "Dad!" "Just stop." I sobbed.

By the time the voices stoped my scalp was red and sore from tugging at my hair and my knee where soaked with tears. I put my night clothes on and climbed under my covers. "This is stupid." I sighed. I closed my eyes and instantly heard my mother screaming. "Great another sleepless night." I groaned, flipping my pillow and looking up at the wall. About twenty minutes later the door creeped open and then shut. I heard them stub there toe and instantly knew it was lily. If she knew I was up I would have to tell her why I left the common room early so I ended up pretending to be asleep.

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A/n: firstly I'd like to thank mjschiefmanged for the request and wonderful plot suggestion. Secondly you'll be glade to know that I'm not winging it with this book and it has an actual plot😁
Love,Kar