Seizing Dreams [B1]

Ch 44 - Pouring Your Heart Out

Translated by: DMlations/Zryuu
Edited by: Amelea, FistFullOfDollars and Juurensha

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Naturally, Lin Xun was opposed to the relationship. Lin Xun wanted to nurture Chen Yekai, get him to hold a teaching position in Columbia as well as become his assistant. However, dating a student while he was a teacher's assistant would greatly affect Chen Yekai's future.

But Liang Jinmin encouraged Chen Yekai. She told him that as long as he was clear about his own feelings, then he had nothing to fear. He could take the initiative to resign, or change universities, or even cease his studies and plot a new course for his future.

Chen Yekai spent a long time hesitating. Ryuusei also understood that although Chen Yekai was the only one in his world, Chen Yekai's life couldn't solely revolve around him. Ryuusei didn't understand love, and also never knew how to express himself well. He chose to retreat and escape; he decided that he didn't want to be a burden on Chen Yekai anymore, so he prepared to drop out from college and return to Japan. But right before submitting his application to discontinue his studies, he asked Chen Yekai to accompany him to Argentina to see the Iguazu Falls.

During that trip, Chen Yekai finally faced his feelings. To him, Ryuusei was like a drug that could make him forget everything, indulge in it, and feel true happiness. It was as if he had been born for him, and existed just for him.

But after they returned to school, the effects of the love drug disappeared. Chen Yekai had to directly deal with Lin Xun's anger and the complaints lodged by the students in Liang Jinmin's class. On one side was the profession that he had loved since childhood, while on the other was Ryuusei's future. Finally, with Lin Xun's intervention, the college relented and gave him a lenient punishment by removing Chen Yekai from his position and allowing him to continue his postgraduate studies with Lin Xun.

Lin Xun had considered being a matchmaker for Chen Yekai by arranging a marriage between his favorite pupil and the daughter of an old acquaintance. However, in the end, Chen Yekai had not only gotten involved in a relationship with an undergraduate, he even came out to his family. They had arguments so heated that the heavens and earth trembled, and he almost broke off all ties with his family. Usually within the country, homosexuality was understood and tolerated, but not when it came to their own son. Yet Chen Yekai disregarded other people's opinions and lived together with Ryuusei after resigning from his teaching assistant position.

After their relationship had stabilized, Lin Xun asked Chen Yekai to spend more time on his studies and research. Chen Yekai began to settle down after the initial honeymoon phase of their relationship and started to consider his plans for the future.

But like all couples, Chen Yekai and Ryuusei entered a period of friction after the initial period of infatuation., They began to face all sorts of difficulties, such as......Ryuusei's need for company, but Chen Yekai had to spend most of his time at college working on his research; Chen Yekai occasionally neglected Ryuusei's feelings; having different attitudes towards their families, friends, relatives, mentors...... and so on, it was Chen Yekai's first relationship, so he felt a bit lost when he was suddenly bombarded with all these conflicts and he neglected Ryuusei's feelings.

He needed time to read and study and was used to being alone. In fact, for many years, he had spent most of his time studying and rarely cared about the thoughts of the people around him. Living together with Ryuusei was tantamount to entering a marriage, and he did not understand how to make their marriage work back then.

"I still remember, Ryuusei would always wake up in the middle of the night with a start." Chen Yekai pondered, "Then turn around and hug me. He was so afraid of losing me......"