TIVA FANFIC: Broken Years, Rivers of Tears (NCIS)

Holding On and Letting Go

NOTE: I've split the first chapter into 2, because I found the length intimidating. This is right after her nightmare.

Ziva stumbled out of her bed and out into the bathroom, her mind racing away. The smooth marble tiles felt cold and unforgiving under her bare feet as she walked towards the small cracked mirror and stared at her reflection.

Pinning back her bushy brown curls, a lonesome tear slipped from her eye..

She quickly smudged it with the back of her hand.

It was no use crying. Ziva had learned that a long time ago.

She had to be strong for Tali, for Ari, for Tony, for Rivkin.

The past was always hard to forget.

And although she tried to block out all the pain, it still cut at her during the middle of her sleepless nights.

The silence.

The darkness.

It was practically ridiculing her, begging her to remember NCIS, Tony, Gibbs..

But she had learned to continue on, and over the last year away from NCIS, she had founded her own Israeli Human Rights Group.

But although she tried to be perky and happy, it wasn't really the truth.

She missed NCIS incredibly.

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A shrill "ding" of her iPhone roused Ziva from her thoughts. Silently cursing and smacking her forehead, she pulled out her phone from her pocket and answered. Ziva had completely forgotten about her trip to America.

"Ms. David, the taxi has arrived," a deep voice on the other end said.

Ziva bit her lip and sighed, looking around at her messy bed and half packed suitcase.

"Tell Dinesh I will be there soon," she decided, hanging up the phone and rushing to cram the necessities into her bag.

After a few tense minutes, Ziva did a quick hair check and grabbed her shades, sprinting out of the door.

She didn't know how to feel.

After all, she was going back to her old home, to the first people who actually accepted her for who she was. But perhaps it would all be too much. Deep down inside, she knew it would never be the same again.

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