I Almost Got Away With It ~ Mindless Behavior

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My heart stopped and fell into my butt. I swallowed the saliva that I had developed in my mouth. I took a few steps back griping onto the edge tightly preparing to throw myself off if needed.

"Imani, what're you doing out here?!" A voice bellowed. I put my hand in front of my eyes to block the unbearable brightness of the flashlight.

Behind it was Roc and Princeton. Both dressed in hoodies and sweatpants. I sighed when I saw them both and placed one hand on my hip.

"Y'all can't be serious." I said putting a hand on my heart. "You sacred me half to death."

"YOU can't be serious! It's freezing AND snowing and all you have on is a tee shirt and sweats. You could catch something!" Roc shouted turning the flash light off.

"Stop being such a dad, Trey. I was coming back." I replied huffing once more.

"I have to be a dad to you. Me and you both know what happens when no one is there to look after you." He said grabbing onto my arm.

I snatched away angrily and looked at him in disgust. How dare he say that to me! That was like pushing the knife a little further into my chest. I was already hurt that I had done what I did and there were constant reminders all around me. I never got one moment of peace. I couldn't even shut my eyes and dream without dreaming of what I did.

He backed away feeling guilty and tried to approach me more kind heartedly while Princeton stood a few feet behind him looking confused as ever.

"What's that supposed to mean?!" I shrieked.

"Imani, I didn't--" he sarted.

"Whatever, Trey. Let's just go back to the Arena." I said cutting him off. I brushed past him bumping his shoulder intentionally and stomped away.

"You in trouble." Princeton whispered to Roc.

There was a loud thwap and then stern sounding whispering. I walked a few yards ahead of them, not bothering to look back and see what they continued whispering about even though it ate my insides out.

Roc was my everything. How dare he let such a thing slip from in between his lips? I knew in the back of my mind that he was disappointed in me, but damn did he blame himself for what I did?

That question struck me like a punch in the gut and I became ill. I couldn't just let him think that him leaving me was the cause of it all. It was my fault, not his. I was feeling worse about myself and therefore I began to cry.

When we reached the Arena I could hear the girls screaming and chanting "Mindless" repetitively. The snow had stopped falling and I didn't feel as sick.

"We're late." Princeton stated looking over at Roc.

"That's why you two shouldn't have come looking for me." I mumbled.

They sprinted inside through the back leaving me in the packed parking lot to find my way to the tour bus. I walked slowly, kicking rocks and slush with my beat up Vans.

I had bought some black and chestnut UGGS, red and white Adidas, grey, black, and white Jordan's, white Nikes, red and royal blue Converse, and every color of Vans they had at Journey's. I felt like the other girls at my school owning all of the popular paraphernalia that everyone else wore. I had even planned my next out fit.

"Oh wait!! Manii, are you watching us tonight?!" A voice shouted. I looked up and Princeton was standing at the side entrance holding the door wide.

"No!!!" I hollered back. He opened his mouth as if he were about to say something, but shut his mouth and closed the door hesitantly.

I shrugged my shoulders and carried on with my lounging in the cold.