Change My Mind

Aubree's Birthday

It was the week of Aubree's third birthday and I wanted to throw her a small party and invite Emma, Niall, Harry, and the rest of their band members.

Plus, my mom, dad, and my younger, sixteen year old sister Tara.

I then realized how bad it was going to be if my family and Harry came.. They would wonder why he was there and Harry would be weirded out.. 

What about Niall? Well, I'd have to explain the situation to my family and Harry, and make sure they acted like they never knew Harry at all.

Sounded hard, but I believed I could do it. 

I wrote out some invitations and Elizabeth helped me deliver them. It wasn't difficult... there were only like, ten invitations. 

 When we got back home, I gave Aubree a bath and then put her down for a nap. "I can't believe she's going to be three." I said to Elizabeth.

She nodded and took a sip of her tea. "I know. It's hard for me seeing her grow up because you came and lived with me while you were pregnant. I watched her grow up from day one." she replied.

"I just wish she hadn't grown up so fast and that Harry would have been able to see her grow up." I mumbled.

Elizabeth sighed. "Are you still hung up on Harry? I mean, yeah, I know you loved him and everything, but Niall is his best friend, bandmate, and he sees him almost every day. Don't get between best friends, Liv. You'll lose." 

I shook my head. "I won't lose... Harry claims he loves me, but then Niall, well, I know he'll be there for me if I need him to be. I can count on him." I explained.

Elizabeth set down her mug. "I'm serious. Don't get between them. Pick Niall, or you pick Harry. You can't have two boyfriends. Harry is the father of your baby, so make sure you keep a strong relationship with him." she said.

"How am I supposed to do that if I'm dating his best friend?" I asked. Elizabeth stood up and grabbed her mug. "My point exactly. Be smart, Olivia. You know what's right, and you know what's wrong. I can't tell you what to do, I can only tell you what I would do and guide you in the right direction." she said.

"So what would you do?" I asked. 

Elizabeth shrugged. "I don't know. I would get to know Niall better before I made any rash decisions. Then think about Aubree. Would Niall be a good figure around her? Is he a good person? Does he love her? But then Harry is a big matter in the decision. Does he want Niall around her? Is Harry a good father towards her? Does he love you and her as much as he says he does? Is he respectful and responsible? You know, all of those are factors you need to think about and consider." she said.

I covered my face with my hands. "What about doing what my heart says?" I said.

Elizabeth put her mug in the sink and turned to face me. "How's that working for you?" she asked.

I shook my head. "It's hard to explain. When I'm with Harry, I think about Harry. But I also wonder about Niall, and what he's doing. When I'm with Niall, it's only about Niall. Then again, Aubree's always on my mind." I replied.

Elizabeth pointed at me. "There. Aubree is your rock. Do you think that maybe Aubree would be the only thing keeping you and Harry together? I mean, does Aubree come up a lot in conversation with you and Niall?" she said.

I shook my head. "No, not really. But when I'm with Harry, it's constantly about me, what I did to him, all about Aubree, and him. It's never about anything else. I also told Harry that I really like Niall, and I want to be with him. Harry didn't seem to accept that as an answer." I said.