Breaking Old Habits

chapter 8: Love?

Love? It's such a small word with so much meaning. Sometimes it can just be a way for a guy or girl to get the other in bed in the case that they don't actually care about you, or maybe a friendly "I love you". In most cases there's the 'date for one week and you suddenly "love" them". But in the rare case, as I truly believe I'm involved in with Kian, the real love, the instant hard falling love, the kind of love that turns your world around and makes you a better person. The kind of love that hits you so hard you don't even realize it's happened. Knowing Kian and I love each other helps my depression so much. I haven't harmed myself since Kian and it makes me feel stronger, like our love has made me stronger. I don't think I depend on him to be better, that's not it. Its almost like I've been so focused on my love for him as a person, an individual, has made me forget about myself. It's helped me realize I CAN love, and if I can love Kian I can love myself. I'm physically and emotionally capable of loving me, Maggie, and I promise you I WILL get there. I'm not a mushy gooshy girl either but I am 100% serious about him. He's different.

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***Authors Note: Okay holy crap I actually forgot this thing existed!!! Like this or comment if I should continue it?! And comment other people you'd wanna see fanfic of!!!