Breaking Old Habits

chapter 2: the new kid

Okay so I've been going to this school since my freshman year and I've never seen this kid before. He's obviously new. He looks new too, perfect hair, perfect outfit, perfect face, perfect everything I guess. I couldn't stop using every bit of my peripheral vision to stare at him and not make it obvious. Too bad I'd never have a chance with someone like him due to the fact that I'm an emotional wreck. Nobody wants to deal with me. I can't even handle myself. But that doesn't necessarily mean I can't ask him his name....

"Hi." I whispered over to him.

"Oh um hi." he whispered back.

"I'm Maggie, but you can call me Mags." I said nicely.

"I'm---" he tried to speak but was interrupted by Mr. Dwyer's loud, "SSSHHH"

"I'm Kian. Kian Lawley." He whispered much quieter so Mr. Dwyer couldn't hear.

"Oh last names too?" I smiled, "Maggie Phlasp..." I said.

"Nice name." he said back with a smile.

Wow I actually was talking to someone. I never just introduce myself I'm so shy. But he was incredibly nice. If only I knew if he thought maybe I was pretty. Lol what am I thinking he's way to good for me. Sorry, excuse my silly hallucinations.

"Oh thanks I guess." I replied trying not to be totally arrogant.
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So finally detention is over. I was trying to get my self to work up the courage to go confront Kian but I was too nervous.

***Kian's POV***
Wow Maggie was, I mean Mags, was really nice. I want to talk to her but I'm to intimidated. She seems to down to earth and good for me. I feel really bad though because I don't think she realized that when she was talking to me her sleeve slipped up on the desk and I saw her scars. I don't want to offend her so I'm just not gonna bring it up for now. That's really disappointing because she seems like a really cool girl and deserves way better than that. I want to get to know her know, I really do.

***Maggie's POV***
Kian started walking over to me... What? Wow. Umm what do I say, what do I do, I've never liked someone this instantly befo---....

"Hey Mags." Kian politely confronted me cutting off my thoughts.

"Oh um hey Kian." I awkwardly replied. I'm so full of abundant confusion and joy and don't even know what to say. One word just kept coursing through my head, 'Ummm'

"Sorry I wasn't very polite and more talkative earlier, I mean after all we were in detention so I wasn't really able to but I wanted to, you seem cool." he smirked.

"Oh, uh, yeah," I giggled, "I wanted to too, you seem really chill." I said to him.

"Not really," he smiled, "but thanks." he replied directly toward me, locking my eyes with his.

"Well sadly I gotta go my moms here to get me, don't wanna piss her off." I laughed.

"Ok yeah," he smirked with a dry, breathy, laugh, "I'll see you tomorrow then?" he asked.

"Umm, tomorrow's Saturday. I wasn't planning on coming to school, you?" I asked as a rhetorical question and giggled.

"Oh my gosh duh, I'm an idiot sorry," he started laughing hard this time, I couldn't help but join, "yeah I'll see you Monday then."

"Okay then see you Mon---" he cut me off.

"Unless you wanted to see me tomorrow? I mean we could go see that new movie, 'Ouija'..." he said kinda quiet worried for my answer.

"Umm well yeah we could see a movie but not that one if you don't mind. I'm not really into demons and possessions and stuff like that, sorry." I replied.

"Oh yeah that's fine whatever you want. I'm not really into that movie either I just figured you might be, but it's cool we both dislike the same things." he smiled.

"Yeah I guess it is," I smiled, "We can just figure it out tomorrow. Here's my number, text me your suggestions." I blushed as I slipped him a small slip of paper with my name and number and a smiley face.

"Cool thanks see you tomorrow then." I smiled and walked away trying to look confident but lord knows I'm far from it.

I walked outside and there sitting was my mom waiting. I told her about the new kid Kian and how he wanted to go see a movie. She was really interested actually and happy I was 'putting myself out there' as she would describe it. I was happy to actually talk to someone and 'put myself out there'. Especially to someone as nice and cute as Kian. I was really shocked and flattered he decided to confront me.
By the time I was done thinking about tomorrow and day dreaming I realized we were home so I went inside, showered, and went to bed when my phone went off... It was Kian.

K: Hey, how about The Avengers?
Me: Ah yes, I love superheroes:)
K: Okay The Avengers it is, lol.
Me: Okay what time?
K: 4?
Me: Yeah cool, see you then.
K: Okay are we meeting or am I getting you?
Me: Get me?
K: Yeah no problem, sweet dreams:)
Me: Right back at ya:)
--------------Next afternoon-------------
Ok so today I'm going to see The Avengers with Kian. I'm really nervous which is odd because I never care what anyone thinks of me I just keep to myself and ignore the world. But Kian was different. A good different. It was like I instantly fell for him, I can't stop thinking about him. I've always been one to believe in God. To believe maybe he has a plan for me or someone that I'm meant to be with. I started asking myself if maybe Kian was it. I'd never felt this way about anyone else so it must mean something. I'm in love with this person. For only knowing him a day that probably sounds ridiculous I should just calm down, it just felt so good to be happy for once. To enjoy something and not think of self harming myself. But I was definitely head over heals for the new kid.