『ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ』 ➵ minsung ✔

『four』

dear bunny,

i had so much fun today, with our friends, but especially with you. 

we mess around so much together in class, and it's so hard to hold in the giggles the whole time.

i'm scared you'll ignore me. 

whether it's now, as friends, or when you find out, or i tell you about my secret.

when i try to ignore you, especially in class, you'll poke me with your pen or draw smileys on my book with all your highlighters. i can't lie to you, every time you do something stinky cute like that, it makes my heart  l e v i t a t e.

i wonder if you do that to everyone, all your friends, or just me.

a little part—fine, a huge part of me hopes you do those things only for me.

whatever happens, please don't stop being so cute.

the world needs it.

and to be honest, i need it too. your own smiles, and the ones your draw in my books never fail to make my day better.

but the sweet stuff you do with me contrasts with the mean stuff you do to me.

i know they're just jokes, and you're just teasing, but it stills hurts when you call me names. i just checked, and yes, my shoulder is starting to bruise from where you punched me a little too hard today. i mean, can i really blame you when i smacked you on the head first? i just didn't expect the punch to be that hard. i guess i've learnt my lesson.

after hanging out with you and your friends, my personality is changing a little, and my family is starting to notice. they say "you're becoming sarcastic" and "we know it's a typical teenage thing, but that doesn't mean you can be nasty to us". 

i haven't even told my friends i have a crush on you. they'd probably tease me a little, then try to convince me to confess, then act like proud parents when i go talk to you.

i'm not really sure what to do.

i guess, for now, i'll just wait and see.

love,

jisung <3