『ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ』 ➵ minsung ✔

『two』

hi bunny,

it's me again, your best friend sungie.

seeing you again today made me realize i've been worrying for nothing. if anything, we hang out even more now. lunch was the highlight of the day, as expected. we sat at our usual spots, on the deckchairs in the park. the sun was shining through the branches of the trees, and the wind was blowing through our hair. it was so pretty. i want to remember these moments together forever, so i'll write down every memorable detail, every laugh that made my heart flutter, every daring move i made and now regret. 

i'm being way too obvious.

perhaps this way you'll notice me.

or maybe you'll realize. and you'll hate me then. you'll want to get away from me. 𝘪̶𝘧̶ 𝘵̶𝘩̶𝘢̶𝘵̶ 𝘩̶𝘢̶𝘱̶𝘱̶𝘦̶𝘯̶𝘴̶ when that happens, hopefully i'll be able to get over you.

i fell even more in love with you today. i'm not sure how, but i did. 

when you pay attention to me, i get my hopes up. when you ignore me, or pay attention to someone else, i feel worthless.

i often feel ignored, whether  it's with my family or my friends. i'm lonely even when i'm not alone. even when they do talk to me, i still feel like i don't belong. but when i'm with you, when you tease me, when you mock me, when i ask you why you're mean to me and you reply "because i'm not a simp", when we share snacks, when we're together, i feel like it's worth being alive. our moments together are worth the air i breathe. when i'm with you, i'm happy.

i swear, i'd do anything to be with you. and often, i wonder what it's like to be loved by you.

love,

jisung <3