Desires Of The Heart

Author's Note

Uhm hi?

This is so weird, opening wattpad after so many months of inactivity. Was it five to six months already? According to the date I last published,  I assume it has already been that long.

So you may wonder, what am I doing here talking to you instead of writing out a new chapter that was supposed to be released so many months ago?

I am here to apologize, and to say that I have to discontinue this book.

You may choose to close this book now if you wish, delete the story from your libraries and forget about this forever. 

Thank you for reading this. I really appreciate every single one of you.

If you're still here, I want to express my intentions, journey, regrets and reasons why I have to discontinue this.

First of all, it's unfair to you readers to wait for a long time to know more about Zackaya's story, for the writer to say that they have already lost interest a long time ago.

This note was long due, but I tried to write. I suffered writing this book for years now, and it's very evident at how long I take to release updates (It took months).

I really did enjoy writing this book. I still remember clearly when I got the notif for my first voter. I was so ecstatic that someone took the time to actually read this! And then I GOT SO INSPIRED that I wrote another chapter :')

I'm really  really sorry to the people who have this book on their libraries, continuously waiting for an update. I am actually surprised you managed to read it this far, and I'm really happy you took the time in reading this.

I actually have planned everything already, since a long time ago. Back when the pandemic has not still started yet. The ending, and the scenes to arrive to that ending. Everything.

Unfortunately, I lost interest gradually over time, and I tried to persist really. It's just that, I got so confused and lost and that I just gave up. 

 All those promises of trying to finish the story, the memories I created, the words I have spun to create an adventure out of nowhere.  It all became a mess. A mess I can't even comprehend in the first place.

I don't know how to fix this, and I don't know when I can fix this. It seems unfair to you that I'm giving up, especially when we are already halfway at the story. I had so many grand plans, but it all went to dust.

All of these sounds like word vomit to be honest, but I'm really struggling to write a story. I want to find that inspiration that drove me in the past, and I can't find it no matter how hard I tried.

The story is a mess really. I've reread everything a few months ago and it's so disorganized and cluttered with no clear direction that I started to hate it rather than appreciate it.

I really really apologize for this. 

 You will hate me, and I deserve it.

I can't just leave you all without a proper explanation.

Maybe it's just time for a new journey, to turn to another page.

Maybe I'll rewrite everything in the future, who knows.

I just want to say thank you :) Thank you for spending your time on my book. Thank you for spending your efforts in trying to understand the confusing mess I have created in my younger days.

Thank you so so much for reading Zackaya's journey halfway through.

THANK YOU <3

Also, please stay safe during the pandemic. Your wellbeing and health comes first ^^

P.S. to my irl friends who read this, Hi! I doubt you that you are reading this, but thank you for the encouragement you gave me. It never failed to make me smile ^^

P.P.S. if you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask below <3