Stay Till The A.M [Alex T]

re-kindling

And no I haven't seen you since,

we lost all our innocence,

you left me in the dark,

while you drink in the park,

never be the same again

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Juliets pov:

He's here.

He is actually here right now, right in front of me, staring through my soul, From the other side of the bar. The soul he hasn't seen in almost 6 years.

He hasn't changed, not dramatically anyways. He still has that essence about him that I could never accurately place. He has matured though, if you were to show me a picture of him now I would be able to name him in a heartbeat from the boy I knew before. his face structure was still the same, minus the facial hair stubbling through.

The style he seems to possess is the major difference that I notice right off the bat. Back then he just used to wear black trousers, mainly jeans, and a tacky worn-out looking jumper, with trainers that his mum had decided to buy for him. He hated going shopping for clothes so he basically just wore whatever his mum thought he would like. Even if he hated it. Back then he wasn't exactly a popular guy. He just sort of went with the flow. He was the aspiring musician that didn't bother with anyone else and didn't like to be bothered in return. He focused on becoming something and proving himself.

That's why I was so shocked that he liked me.

We were in the same year at school and just like him, I kept my head down and didn't like to be bothered. But because of that statement being taken too literally I had legitimately bumped into him on my way to my french lesson.

He was carrying his guitar on his back and I am assuming, was on his may to music lesson. I was coming around a corner and was looking at my feet and collided into his body. I apologised profusely but all he seemed to be concerned about was if I had dented his guitar.

That should have been the moment I realised that that guitar would end up meaning more to him than me. I only ever got in his way.

From then on it seemed we just couldn't stop running into each other and then one day I was with Arielle and she walked me over with her to her friend Matt. He was a stalky build but he was kind. He realised I was shy and awkward pretty fast and tried to make me feel comfortable as quickly as possible. They were chatting away, with me joining in periodically, when Alex showed up.

Turns out they had decided to start a band with Alex playing guitar and Matt playing drums and they were searching for other members.

From then on we started hanging out more and more and we ended up going out for a bit. He asked me to be his girlfriend around 1 or 2 months after that account and we were together for almost 2 years. Within the last year he made his priorities extremely clear to me and I was obviously not the main one he was concerned about so we broke up. Or more like he broke up with me.

Not in the most conventional way but a break up nonetheless.

But in the end I was, and still am thankful for it. 

And as we stare at each other, all of this information and nostalgia run through my mind at a hundred miles per hour.

I have so many options I could do at the moment.

Get up and walk out

Pretend I never saw him

Flip him off and leave