Stay Till The A.M [Alex T]

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I only call you when it's half past five
The only time that I'll be by your side
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me

When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, yeah

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I wasn't expecting to see him there.

I wasn't expecting to ever see him again ever.

After an eventful morning with Mark I was hoping to just go out and have some fun with him before he had to leave for work. He works as an assistant for some high up manager (so he is an assistant manager) at the sage and sound recording studios. I met him a few weeks ago at a club when Gem dragged me out for my birthday. I had just turned 27 and as in the previous years every time the same dreadful time of year came around again I told her all I wanted to do was stay in the house and spend time with her. Crowded places were never necessarily my favourite situations to be in, so every year I resorted to staying inside.

But this year she wouldn't have it. She came barging into my house, again, poured cold water over my face and screamed "Wake up bitch we're going out tonight and you need to look even hotter than usual". As I said. I did not have a choice.

And when Geminia decides to do something you do not. In any circumstances. DO NOT. Go against her orders.

Within the years of living in america my skin has darkened from a "dracula meets edward cullen" to a "Oh, yeah I live in the bahamas" type look. My natural tan game is on point. Every chance I get on a good day I go to Santa Monica beach to sunbathe. I usually go in the morning, despite not being a morning person. I know when to be logical in life and everyone knows that the earlier you are the less human interaction you have to deal with. As the saying goes "The early bird gets the special". I take a book with me and just sit along the beach, on my worn out towel of Bob Marley's face, in a bikini and just wait for the sun to hit its peak so I can get a tan. Each time I try to read a new book and one that I was loving was "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks. A heartbreaking tale of love and loss.

Lovely.

So that day when Gem put me in a rather revealing outfit that threw me out of my comfort zone but also made me feel sexy I felt... hot.

It was a two piece where the top had straps going over my boobs but hardly anything actually covering the goods themselves. It had matching trouser, legging type things that had slits down each side. I wore extremely risky heals that were 4 inches tall adding to my height that already stood at average. I did my makeup in a very dark smokey eye, per Geminia's request.

While she wore an ominous green ensemble that had a tank top with a matching skirt that had a slit down the side. Very out there compared to my outfit. But that's Geminia for you. I did say she was a gemini. She loves being bold and having the attention on her.

Honestly that day we went so hard in outfits it felt like I was 22 again. That day really made me reminisce back to how I missed out on my late teenage years and early adulthood to being scared and closed off to the outside world. Moving to the west coast helped a lot. You can't survive in a place like this being a scared little girl. Throwing yourself in the deep end can give you major help in social skills.

I let the people in my past define my future and I learned the hard way that that is not the way to live life. If you are living life in fear you are not truly living.

So when I finally thought that things were heading in the right direction. That something would happen in my favour. Life throws a curveball that I could've never prepared myself for. For him to be the thing that could change everything.