Stay Till The A.M [Alex T]

shopping

It's been amazing.

The past 2 weeks have been great. No run ins with a certain someone... and a lot of sex.

Since I've become Mark's girlfriend it's like I have a weight lifted off my shoulders.

Now it doesn't feel like I'm chasing after him when he's mine. Or that he gets sick of me when he asked me to be his girlfriend. It makes me feel... wanted in a sense.

I mean we haven't been able to see each other as much as I'd like to but when we do we make the most of it.

He seems to be working a lot right now, as a band is making their new album and he has to help the producer keep track of everything. He said that the band was called The Monkeys or something like that and that I probably haven't heard of them since they're from overseas.

Although they are taking up the majority of his time I'm okay with it.

Since moving to London on my own and then moving to America, I've learned never to be dependent on someone else. That sometimes yourself is the only person you will ever truly have, and that thats all you ever really need. I did learn that the hard way but its a valuable lesson that everyone should hear once in a while.

And it's been so long since I've had a boyfriend. A proper one that made it clear what I am to him.

I love it.

Security is one of the most important things to me.

Knowing that someone has got your back at all times and that they care really makes me feel loved.

I don't know if I love Mark.

But I know I like the way he makes me feel and to me, that's enough.

Currently I decide to go on a walk around L.A.

The day is beautiful and the sun is shining like today is going to be the day it reaches everyone and sprinkles some happiness on them. Today will be a good day. I can feel it.

I would've asked Gem if she wanted to come but she told me she had a photoshoot with some guy she had met on the street and I just told her "Be careful you won't know how many creeps their are amongst the normal". And today feels like a me day. Do you ever have those. I think everyone does at some point. Today is meant for me and the sun is shining.

Today will be a good day.

I stop in front of a small boutique, similar to the one I work in actually. The clothes in the window look very vintage which is what makes me walk inside.

And when I do it's like walking into a time machine.

Everything in here is old fashioned, in the best way possible.

As far as the eye could see, rows and rows of clothes. And right at the back was the till surrounded by nicknacks.

Nail polish, sunglasses, shoes, gloves, earrings, rings. Everything you could want to look... cool.

I still for a moment and take in the feeling of the past. Seeing things like this make me wish the fashion world had stopped at a standstill so that the world was like the way it was from the 60's-90's.

Once I gather my bearings and see a row of jeans hung on clothes racks I can't help but make a b-line towards them. There are all sorts of jeans, low rise, mid rise, high-waisted, flared, mum jeans, boyfriend jeans, straight leg, baggy, honestly anything you could want in a pear of jeans.

Today I plan on buying a whole outfit to accommodate my body maybe when I go out or on another lovely day. But all I know is that these clothes are going to be bought because I like the way they look and that I shouldn't care what everyone else says. My opinion is the one one that matters.