Thinking of You

6

I wake up and sigh, more work. I go put on jeans, a shirt and boots. I leave my hair natural, and light make up. I go down and make cereal for Daisy and then get her dressed. I put her in jeans, a jumper and vans. I brush her hair and leave it down. I put her in her highchair, and we eat our cereal. I spot Josh walking out and sitting down.

"Are you bringing her to work?" asked Josh. "Yeah, I am. They have day care, and she enjoys it" I said, smiling. I stand up and leave with Daisy. I put her in her seat and fasten her seatbelt. I get in and drive to the compound.

I pick her up and carry her to the day care centre and leave her there. I say bye and go to my office. I sit down and Steve pops his head in. "Hey, Elliana" said Steve. "Call me Ellie" I said. "OK, Ellie" said Steve. He walks inside and sits down. "You look stressed" said Steve. I look at him. "How can you tell?" I ask. "I just can, Ellie" said Steve. I shrug. "Had a fight because I went out with you without telling him." I spoke. "Oh. Right" said Steve. I nod. "Yeah, imagine, a fully grown woman and getting in trouble" I said, frowning. "He does not control you, right?" said Steve. "He does not" I said. "Well, if he ever does, tell me" said Steve. "I will. Trust me, he wouldn't dare" I said. Steve nods and sits down. "Want to go on a short mission? I need to buy food this place" said Steve. "Sure" I said. I stand up and go tell the day care. We get in car and he begins to drive to Walmart. "So, it's your turn to buy food" I said. "Sure is. I guess it's because I am the oldest with Buck" said Steve. "God, your old" I said, laughing. "I sure am, aren't I?" said Steve, chuckling. "I guess you miss Peggy?" I ask. "I do but she told me to live life and I finally am" said Steve. "That's good. My husband hates SHIELD, the Avengers, etc. He thinks they are the reasons why I want to have three kids. In a way it is, I was an only child, trained to be a SHIELD agent." I spoke. "And I assume you want Daisy to be an agent" said Steve. "Yeah, in a way I do. If she doesn't want too, I won't force her" I said. Steve nods and we go shopping.

As we finish, I spot Josh. "Oh fuck me" I said. "Elliana what are you doing here?" asked Josh. "Food shopping for everyone at work" I said. "Where's Daisy?" asked Josh. "Day care. Look, we need to make lunch so I will see you later" I said. "Ellie! Can we talk?" asked Josh. "I'm sorry but we're in a rush" I said. I grab Steve's hand and pull him out. We get in and drive back to the compound. We pack everything away and I sit down. "You OK?" asked Steve. "His such a fucking jerk" I said. "He is not the nicest" said Steve. "Yup" I said. "How did you end up getting married, if you don't mind me asking?" asked Steve. "He asked and I said yes. I was happy but I was not happy.... Like happy but I just ignored the doubt and did it. It was easier that way and plus, his parents would have just made it happen." I spoke. "Are you in love with him?" asked Steve. "No. I love him, but I am not in love with him" I said. "Why don't you divorce him?" asked Steve. "Daisy" I said. "Wouldn't it not be better to be apart than together for Daisy?" asked Steve. "Maybe but his parents won't be happy with that shit going down" I said. "That is horrendous" said Steve. I nod. I look at my rings and sigh. "I wish I was in love with him but maybe he isn't the one for me" I said. "Maybe he isn't" said Steve. I nod and we make lunch.

I play with my fork and dig in. Once we finish, I head back to my office. I begin to do some work on files and then sigh. It's 5pm and I go pick up Daisy. I bring her home. Josh is sitting on the sofa. "Daisy, go to your room" I said. Daisy nods and Josh stands up. "I want you to fucking stop hanging with Captain America" said Josh. "He is a work mate; we need to talk for our job" I said. "Tough shit, Elliana. Your mine. So, you better fucking stay away from him" said Josh. "How about fuck no. Me and Daisy will stay with Laura and Clint." I spoke. "Daisy is going nowhere. She will stay here." Demanded Josh. "Fuck off." I spoke. "No. She is staying here" said Josh. "Fine." I spoke. I tell Daisy, daddy is minding her and grab some stuff and leave.

I head to my car and drive to Steve's. I'd rather stay with him. I knock and he opens the door. "Hey, what's wrong?" asked Steve. "Josh blew up at me over you" I said. "Oh" said Steve. "Can I stay?" I ask. "Sure, you can" said Steve. He lets me step in. "Wow, it's modern and old fashioned" I said. "Had to be, I want old fashioned but also new fashioned" said Steve. I laugh and place my bags on the ground.

"I was just about to make chicken dinner, want some?" asked Steve. "I'd love that" I said. He goes to make it while I help. Once we finish and eat it. Once we finish, I go put on my shorts and tank top. I go back out and Steve's in pyjama pants and a tank top. We sit down and begin to watch television. Once we finish, I look at Steve and he looks back at me. We lean in and our lips touch. I kiss back harder and he pushes me down on the sofa. "Take me to your bedroom" I said, moaning. He picks me up and carries me to his room. He places me down on his bed and crawls on top of me. He kisses me and pulls my top off. I moan when he kisses down my neck and chest. He reaches my shorts and pulls them down. I gasp and try to get some friction.

Eventually we get too into it we forget a condom. Once we finish, I gasp and place my head on his chest. "I loved that" I said. "So, did I" said Steve. "Can we keep doing it? Until I figure out how to divorce Josh without getting into shit by his family?" I ask. "Of course, Ellie" said Steve. I kiss him and we instantly fall asleep.

I think I could fall in love with Steve Rogers, his absolutely amazing.

Sorry for not updating, no internet since Tuesday! I am back with faster internet!

Lorna xx