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who is she?

"yo bitch wanna suck the codeine outta nigga." jaylin sung in his best robb bank$ impression as he argued along with gabe on who's hoes looked better. janzel, jackson, kerian and even gabe laughed at jaylin. kerian was another close friend of ours, actually, he was the last member. we had a bunch of other niggas we fucked with but the people surrounding me right now were truly my niggas.

hol' up, now that i think about it... why the fuck does half of these niggas names start with j? gay as fuck.

currently we were roaming the west side pavilion with no more than twenty dollars in our pockets. i could cash out at mcdonalds... but i couldn't even buy a hat out of h&m. and i'm not with that stealing shit like jackson and gabe are all too fond off. i understand why jackson would steal, he's a little broke nigga like us. but gabe is privileged as fuck so he's just being greedy. i have yet to call him out on that shit tho. so i'ma shut my sneak dissing ass up.

we were walking past a shop when janzel pulled out a bottle of pills and raised it into the air. he shook the contents inside to make a rattling noise and gather our attention. i know those rectangular pills.

"oh shit, my nigga got that xan!" i slightly yelled out, only the boys were able to hear me. i reached up and grabbed the bottle out of his hands; since i was taller than janzel and could match his arms length. i compressed and twisted the bottle cap off to expose almost twenty capsules nestled in the plastic container.

"how the hell did you get so many?" i inquired. you normally couldn't get this many pills unless they were prescribed to you. we continued normally walking down the path to not raise suspicion. "nigga, do you have something to tell us?"

"malachai, shut the hell up. eric's cousin killed his self a few days ago so eric went and ransacked his apartment. that nigga is heartless. he was selling them for fifty so i had to buy them, i would be stupid not to." janzel told us how he came about the pills. i shook my head once i heard eric's name. i had a strong distaste for his ass. he just wasn't trustworthy and had a snake vibe to him. i only put up with his ass because i pissed off my old dealer. i ripped that nigga too much because he had herpes all up on his lip and shit. he bitched me one day by putting a gun to my head and cutting me off. i wasn't about to play with my life and stay around so i found eric through jackson.

"damn, that's cold... gimmie two of those." jackson quickly addressed and ignored the subject matter provided in front of us. despite how sad the story was the drug still remained priority. janzel dipped two fingers inside of the container taking out two pills at a time and dropping them in each of our hands. we were bound to cause some havoc with the large dose of the pills but that's how we always did it and we have no problem with doing it again. each of the boys took their pills and dropped them on the flesh of their tongues swallowing them dry out a single problem. it would only take a couple of minutes or so for the drugs to take effect so we decided to continue wandering around the mall waiting for high to come where the real fun will begin. we were never afraid of the consequences, we decided that we would deal with those as they appeared; it was a very reckless of us. however, we were always reckless. despite our growing age and supposed acquiring of maturity we still had the minds of young toddlers, well, toddlers on drugs but still like toddlers are we had no care in the world.

it was as we are passing by the dim lit store of spencer's that i could feel the pressure of the world floating into the air and off of my shoulders. here it was, it was now in my system circulating through my body. as my eyes travel over the faces of my peers i can see it has begun to take effect on them too and now we were, or felt, infinite.

it was as if my mind had blanked out until this moment, the moment where i was thrown over a burly man's shoulder being escorted out of the building while all of the people crowded around observing. i have no recollection of the events that had transpired before but i knew it had to be awful. Since i was the only one being escorted out but some of my friends were being handcuffed and restrained on the floor. the security guards were treating us like animals. and animals we might have been. i could not detest nor accept their actions since i do not know what is wrong and what is right but at this moment i felt infuriated and i wanted to do something about it. tipping over the man's shoulder i broke away from his grasp. i shuffled onto my feet and ran towards jaylin who had a knee to the upper back and a palm to his cheek. without thinking it through i charge the officer or fake officer as i would like to call it and knocked him to the ground. i turned back to jaylin, checking to see if he was alright as i helped him stand up to his feet. looking around i saw kerian and jackson already handcuffed and being dragged out. they were past my ability of assistance. janzel was nowhere to be found and in that the minute i found a deep rage inside of me for him. how could he run away at a time like this? a time where his friends truly needed him, that fuck nigga. gabe was struggling with officer by the benches, trying to get out of this hold, jaylin and i wasted no time rushing over and separating the two, pushing that officer to the ground also. now we were faced with three officers with angst lacing the wrinkles of their face and so we had to find a way to get the fuck away from them. we got ourselves together and ran towards the back exit of the mall. several of the mall cops were chasing after us but the energy of our youth was pumping too furiously, they couldn't stand a chance. fat pigs. as i was dashing past many bystanders i came across a familiar face. it was the anime eyes again. i halted my sprint and turned back to her while the other two continued running. she gasped as i intervened between her and the door of pacsun. i found her, again. hopefully, third times the charm.