Boba And Dreams ˚ yeonbin ˚

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♫♪.ılılıll|̲̅̅●̲̅̅|̲̅̅=̲̅̅|̲̅̅●̲̅̅|llılılı.♫♪ song: CORPSE & LilyPichu - Agoraphobic & Dreamy Night

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the next morning, everyone left except the main five. yeonjun was still asleep, so soobin brought him up to his own bedroom. the sun was starting to set, and although it was nearly winter, the others grew a little worried. 

the all sat on the couch, just talking, when taehyun voiced his worries. "is he still breathing?"

"what- don't say something like that." beomgyu whined. "but yeah, hyung, go check."

soobin went upstairs, knocking on the door in case yeonjun was awake. he didn't get a reply, so he opened the door with caution. soobin let out a sigh of relief at the sight of yeonjun still sleeping, muttering something in his sleep. soobin stepped closer and sat on the edge of the bed, reaching out to stroke his hair when he realised he was sweating. "it's not even hot, is he sick?"

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"i don't know who you are!" she screamed, throwing anything she could get her hands on. yeonjun sobbed, covering his ears at all the noise. he was overwhelmed from the screaming and shouting. he couldn't take it. if felt like people were crowding around him and banging pots, scratching and pinching his skin. "Please, stop! Stop!" --

"yeonjun? wake up...hey wake up!" soobin shook the whimpering boy, fear evident in his eyes. yeonjun's eyes flew open, the boy sitting up and panicking. "soobin-" He sobbed out, holding onto the boy for support. soobin embraced him, clearly confused and concerned. "holy shit, baby, you're shaking. what happened?"

yeonjun didn't answer, still crying into soobin's shoulder. "and you're burning up! stay here, I'll get you medicine-"

"no, no, please. please don't leave me," soobin looked down at his boyfriend, who was close to tears again. "I...I'll be right back okay? I promise."

"p-promise?"

soobin nodded and left the room, handing yeonjun one of his plushies to keep the distraught boy company. He made his way back to the living room, the other boys' laughter loud. "is he okay?" taehyun questioned. soobin turned to hueningkai. "does he...normally wake up upset when he's sick?" 

hyuka rushed up the stairs without a word, confusing everyone. soobin went back up, hearing more crying. "what's going on?" He asked the maknae. hueningkai shook his head as if to say 'not now', but soobin was too worried to recognise it. "i need to know-"

"d-don't worry about it, i should go home," yeonjun said, wiping his eyes. kai facepalmed as if to say, 'this is what i'm talking about'. "no, if you go home you'll lock yourself in your room." huening whined. soobin nodded in agreement. "i just need some time alone. and my mother-"

"should be in a hospital." hueningkai interrupted. both chois looked at him in shock. "are you fucking crazy?" soobin whispered harshly. "you need to hear it, hyung! she's ruining you!" 

"she's my mother!"

"and you've looked after her long enough! listen, noona, i care about you both. if you want to be healthy and have her be healthy, she needs to go." yeonjun looked away from hueningkai and coughed.

"i think...i think kai's right." soobin said, placing a hand on yeonjun's. the elder shook his head. "you can't be serious-"

"tell soobin what happened." kai said.

"n-no, he'll just get mad and over-protective."

soobin looked between the two in curiosity. "what is it?"

yeonjun sneezed and shook his head. kai rolled his eyes. "his mother used to be worse. nowadays, she's lost touch with reality so she seems half asleep but- there use to to be a time where she would lose it completely."

"what do you mean?"

yeonjun sighed. "can we not talk about it?"

"noona, please. how do you expect him to help?" hueningkai begged. "okay fine! she...she used to throw things at me. call me names and tell me i'm not her son. for a while, i believed her, thinking i wasn't really hers but then she got diagnosed with schizophrenia...my father started drinking before she got diagnosed - he would join in when she was abusing me, and then abuse her when she wasn't going insane. whenever i get sick, i relive those moments. i-i'm sorry for not saying anything-"

"you don't have to apologise for any of that. i know you don't want to hear it, but you have to let her go." soobin advised.  Yeonjun nodded.

it's easy to ignore the pain when you have something sweet, but sometimes- no, all the time, you need to take a step back and look again. only then will you realise how much pain you really are in. sometimes you'll need help - yeonjun learned that lesson today.

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hello there :)  this chapter was just...messy? idk i don't like it but whatever-

this song makes me ~float~

-Date written: 21/03/21
-Date published: 21/05/09

-YBSWIRLS