I fell in love

"The Grammys" (part 3)

Before I knew it, it was almost time for me to perform. When they told me Billie was going on I went to go see her perform. She was performing " when the party's over" I watched her perform. After she was done I was told to go on stage. I went on stage and took a few deep breath's and then I started to sing my song.
"You promised me you never leave but you end up going"
"You promised me you wouldn't hurt but you end up hurting"
"Why did you make promises you knew you couldn't keep"
"I tried to fix a broken heart without it's key"

I sing the first few lines of the song. When I get to the choirs again I start to cry a little. I hold most of it in. When I am done performing I bow and then I lift up my dress and walk off stage. When I get off stage I am greeted by my crew. They know that after shows I like to just be alone or be with Sariah or my family. In this case it's just Sariah. When we get into the green room I get my nebulizer and hook it up so I can get on it. Before I turn it on I ask Sariah to tell me what happened to my parents.
Nadirah=bold
Sariah=this shit
           Ok so what they told me was that your parents were on a flight to come surprise you during your performance. Apparently everybody knew this except for me and you. They said that there was an oil leak on the plane. Then you know where the rest goes.
            It's my fault. It's all my fault. If I didn't have this award show then they wouldn't of had to come down. It's my fault.
            No it's not Nadirah you had no control over what happened to the plane.
           Sariah just keeps on talking on about how it's not my fault. I am to numb to even listen to what she is saying anymore. After I am done my treatment I go back to my seat and wait until she announces the next award.

Ounce Alicia keys comes back on stage I hear her saying what the next award is going to be.

" and the winner for best pop solo performance is NADIRAH AIESHAAAAA"

I get up and go on stage. I am still numb so I just fake my emotions. After my little speech I just get off stage and stay behind stage to wait for her to announce the next award.

" and the winner is WHEN WE ALL FALL ALSEEP WHERE DO WE GO BILLIE EILISHHH"

As soon as I hear her name I snap out of it and start to cheer. She looks at me and smiles I smile back. She gets on stage and thanks her label and her brother Finn. Alicia says the next name I here my name.I go on stage.

" ummm ok so I have run out of words to say but I just wished my parents could be here to see what I just accomplished today. I love them and for ever will."
I walk off stage then I hear billies name. Once I here her name I run back to my trailer. I get out of the dress and I put on my dads over sized t- shirt and my moms scarf which would always smell like her and I would always bring it with me if she wasn't. I get my childhood pillow pet and just cry. Billie walks in and just holds me.

"Time lapse"
We are now back home. Billie said that she was going to stay with me so I don't doing anything stupid to myself. We are now just in my bed cuddling.
Nadirah=bold
Billie=this shit
Billie I am going to go take a bath wanna come
Are you sure
Yea I don't wanna have a panic attack with no one there I can feel it coming. Usually warm water helps a little.
Yea ok baby
I walk to the bathroom and Billie follows me. We both start to get undressed. I turn on the water for a bath. Billie gets in then I sit between her legs. I already knew she was a girl but had the opposite private part. I just sat there and embraced her touch. After we got done washing up I could feel my attack coming. Usually I know what kind of attack it was and I knew what kind attack this was. It was the kind that I just had to let ride out nothing could stop it. I warn Billie.
Nadirah= bold
Billie=this shit
Hey Billie can we get out I am about to have an attack. And this attack is different nothing can stop it I just have to let it ride out.
Ok let's get out
Ok let's hurry before it starts please.

We get out and I put a towel on my head a around my body. Ounce I am done that I fall. Billie catches me and carry me to the bed. I shake uncontrollably and cry. Billie just comforts me.
Ok Im here just listen to my voice.

Usually after these I pass out. I just let it ride out until I am done. I start to calm down. I just lay on billies chest as she shhs me to sleep.
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Hi I hope you like this one. Ok that it bye😁