I fell in love

"The Grammys" (part2)

And the winner is NADIRAH AIESHAAAA
Nadirah= this shit
Holy fuck
   I get up to go on stage
Umm wow I didn't expect that to happen. I don't know what to say. Umm I just want to thank my managers, my label, my best friend who's been with me threw thick and thin and the fans because without the fans which I like to call my family I wouldn't be here so thank you.
I get of stage and go behind stage to meet up with my people. I calm down my breathing and just stand waiting for her to announce the other award. Which is Album of the year then it's going to be record of the year and the last one before people start performing again is song of the year.
Alicia keys= bold
Ok so the next award is Album of the year and the nominees are Nadirah aiesha, Billie Eilish, Shawn Medas and dua lipa. And the winner is...........NADIRAH AIESHA
Nadirah= this shit
  Ummm ok so this is so weird for me right now cuz it's like this is my first year here and my anxiety is like on a whole other level then it's like I'm like winning the two first awards and I feel bad cause I think Billie deserves it. Umm but anyways again just want to thank my label, my best friend, and my fans which are my family. Yea thank you for this.
                        I get of stage
Can someone please get Sariah or Billie or both please hurry I'll be in the bathroom just please hurry.
         I past myself to the bathroom to try to calm down but it doesn't work. One of my
Managers comes in with billie.
   Billie=this shit
Nadirah= bold
              Hey it's ok I'm here they said they couldn't find Sariah so they just sent me. Nadirah look at me put your hand on my chest.
                I put my hand on her chest
You feel that now follow my breathing in and out ok just focus on breathing nothing else. 
         I close my eyes and do as she says. My breathing starts to get better.
Ok better do you mind telling why that happened.
                         Well first I just felt embarrassed because I was getting the awards and I don't think I deserve them and really just upset that my parents couldn't be here.
   Hey it's ok I'm here if you need me ok
                      Yea thank you billie
    Your welcome now let's get back
                      Ok
            When we get back all we here is " and the winner is nadirah aieshaa" we hear my name and hurry up. I ask if Billie could stay backstage for me because I feel something bad was about to happen. I got up there in shock again and I just thanked everybody again. In the middle of my speech someone comes up to me and whispers something in my ear. When they are done I just continue my speech like nothing happend. When I got off the stage I broke down. I ran to my trailer. Billie runs after me. When I walk into my trailer I see Sariah crying.
Sariah=this shit
Nadirah= bold
               Do you already know is that why you disappeared.
Yea I'm sorry I couldn't take it.
              Do you know when
  I cant tell you right now they don't want me to tell you until after you perform so it doesn't ruin your performance.
          Well I'm and actor and all but I don't think I'll be able to pull this off
It's ok you won't have to your doing to be singing a sad song so it's ok if you cry.
          Yea I guess
                  Billie walks in
I'll give you two space o and they said that they went on break before they did the next award.
                 Ok thank you
Billie=this shit
Nadirah=bold
            Hey what just happened out there are you ok
  No but I guess I'll be fine. Umm I'm an actor the reason no one knows is because on my first ever films which I am filming now I got the lead. We are still filming the movie so no one knows about it. That's why I was fine on stage and just came off crying. I was crying bc the guy that was on the stage whispered in my ear saying that my parents died. They won't tell me how because they dont want me to ruin my performance.
          Nadirah I'm so sorry I wish I could help. Just know that I'm here if you need me ok.
  It's not your fault and I'm sorry for putting all this on you we barely know each other and we don't date so what does it matter.
          Nadirah I know that you want me but what you don't know is that I want you too I always have. I just never showed it because of the public.
               Billie moves closer to my face
You have no idea how long I've waited to hear that from you.
             We kiss and I close my eyes
I really needed that. Let's go before we miss the next award.
             Ok and know that if you win you most definitely deserve it. Don't feel bad for me not winning my year was last year this is your year.
Thanks billie
                   We walk back just in time before the break is over.
Alicia keys=bold
     Ok so we are back folks and the last award before some more performance is  song of the year. The nominees are Nadirah Aiesha, Billie Eilish, Lizzo and H.E.R. And the winner isss NADIRAH AIESHAAAAAA
                    I go up onstage and just say thank then walk off. When that's done we go back to the trailer to get ready for the performance. When I am getting change the whole time I am just playing with the neck less my mother gave me. I asked if I could wear the ring my dad gave me they said yes. We go walk back and just hangout in my green room. Before it's time for me to preform.
———————————————————————
Ok so yea this has a lot of words but um this is the end of this chapter goin hon to the next.🙂
3/19/21