I fell in love

"I opend up"

TW: mentioned of sexual assault

I woke up to the sun light shining on Billie and mines face. I look up at her and just admire her features. I just look at her. "Stalker" I swing my leg over hers and get on top of her. "No I was just admiring how beautiful you are" I said as I was looking into her eyes as they are still closed. "Oh really" she says as she opens her eyes. " mhmm" she flips me over. "Hey I have a question" she says as she looks at me into my eyes. " go on" I say as I am doing the same. "Wanna be my girlfriend" she says with a serious face. " really" i say surprised. "I mean yes yea I will" I say super excited. She kisses me on the lips. She gets off of me and we both sit up. I look at my phone seeing what time it was. It said it was 11:30. " dang we slept in" I say as I look at Billie. " yea hey but how are you feeling" she says as she looks at me with a concerned face. I just look down. "Nadirah I know that you have a hard time telling your true feelings but you have to tell me how you are feeling I need to make sure my baby is ok" she says with a worried voice. " I don't know how I feel right now. But there's something going on no body knows other than Sariah and parents not even my label knows. It's a hard thing to talk about." I say with tears in my eyes.
"Hey if you don't want to tell me you don't have to I will wait until you are ready to anything" she says as lifts my head up. "I know but I think you should know." I take a deep breath and then I start talking.

"So basically before my mom got back together with my dad my mom had a boyfriend. Well I mean she actually had a lot. But with this one he had already had kids. He had a 20 year old daughter and a 17 years old son. When we would go over his house I would just be laying on the couch. He would ask to lay with me and I was 7 at the time so i didn't know any better. I let him and then he would start to tell me to touch him and he would touch me. I didn't want to do it but I thought if I didn't listen to him I would get in trouble. He would make me bleed."

I start to cry really hard and my leg start to bounce. "Nadirah I am so serious look at what it's doing to you please stop" she say with a stern and worried voice. "I'm fine" I take a deep breath and then I  continue telling the story.

" well when it kept on happening I told my sister I told my sister everything and yea I have a sister like I said no one knows about this other then Sariah and my parents. Well one day I guess my sister told her dad and when it was my moms weekend my mom found out. We had to talk about the whole situation. Later that night the police came banging on our door and then took her from my arms that was the last memory that I have of my sister. Well now that I am turning 18 soon I finally get to see her. When we were little we were able to have supervised visits but it didn't happen because of my mom and she kinda gave up on her. So I just waited till I was 18 to do anything about it. Billie I'm sorry for bringing you into this you shouldn't have to take on so much because of me." I say as look down

" nadirah I wanted you since the day I knew who you were you never knew because I hid it so well. I want you and what comes with you and I will wait to do anything with you until you are ready I will be by your side as long as you need me too." She says as she looks in my eyes. I go up to her and give her a tight hug. I have this feeling in my body a feeling that I never felt before and I think I know what it is.

                    I think I'm in love
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