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The Worst Feeling

I hate the feeling that you get when a certain song comes on, or you see a picture,  or read a poem and it reminds you of someone. You think you forgot about them but in reality that one song, that one picture, or that one poem reminds you of that person and all of the memories and all of your feelings come back to you. It is literally the worst feeling ever. You can't move on… All you think about is that one person and when you say you like someone else all that goes through your head is how much you love the other person without even thinking. You remember every text, every moment, every I love you, then when you look back they didn't really mean it and you realize that you're all alone and all you want is to be with that one person. I thought that I would fall in love later in life but I have to say this… I love Chris Talley and I can't hide it. I miss our texts, I miss taking on the phone with you, I miss you… I wish I could find out what I did because I would take it back just to talk to you again. You promised you wouldn't let me down, you said you would take me to the beach when you saw me, you said you liked me and would date me, you said you would never regret calling me yours, and most of all you said I love you on the phone nine times and said you wouldn't know what you would do without me. You will probably never see this but I have to say it, I wish I could just see you… I don't care if its for five minutes or an entire night… I will never forget that Chris Talley and I hope no matter what you don't forget me… I promise I will never forget you. When I listen to pretend by secondhand serenade… You're all I think about and I die inside every time I hear Alabama, or even the name Chris… I have already deleted Trumpets by Jason Derulo off of my phone because every time I hear it I cry… Every time I watch frozen and hear Love is an open door I think about you and remember talking to you and watching it over the summer… I miss you so fucking much! You don't know how much I miss you but I'm just hoping that one day you will at least talk to me… I don't care if you like me or not, I just want to talk to you again… You made me smile when all I wanted to do was break down and cry, you talked to me on my trip to Nebraska and Colorado, you talked to me at school. I will never forget how happy I was when you talked to me and I just want that again… You finally broke me I thought I was done after my break up in may but it turns out… I'm done after you left me… I love you Chris Talley and I hope you have a nice life without me because you didn't even say goodbye. So, here I am saying goodbye to the person I love… I found this quote and it explains this. "Don't ever leave the one you love, for the one you like… Because the one you like, will leave you foe the one they love!"