Everything I have to say

I Miss You

I hate the feeling of your heart thumping, the memories we shared. The smiles and the laughs I wasted. I hate the fact that no matter what I do you're still in my head, and the fact that I still can't delete our conversations because that's all I have left from you. The late nights I stay up crying and wondering what I did, or crying in the shower so nobody can hear me. The one song that comes on and ruins my whole mood within a few minutes. I got back up on my feet and built a stronger wall and somehow you ended up tearing it down, and I let you in. I made the mistake, and now I'm paying for it. This place of loneliness and the feeling that I just wasn't good enough. The fact that you aid you would never go anywhere, but yet that's exactly what you did. You left. You helped me get back up on my feet, promised me you would never leave, break down the walls I built, and then left the mess of a shattered heart in a million pieces. All I want are answers, but you can't even give those anymore. I miss when we talked, I miss the random smiles I would get in the middle of my classes. I miss our late night calls, and our silly little arguments. I miss you.