Ellie Meiziah
10:38 PM
eustace:
Mei. I'm sorry, andito na
naman ako para mag share.
Actually nahihiya na ako, pakiramdam ko lagi na lang kitang dinadamay sa mga problema ko na super babaw naman. Wala lang talaga akong mapagsabihan, and I'm sorry kung mukhang natataken kita for granted. I really apologize.
meiziah:
whom the sexual intercourse
in short wtsi, in other terms what the fuck.
You don't need to apologize! I'll always be here for you guys, don't think you're putting your burdens on me. I've never think of it that way. I love you guys. No need to apologize!
And I'm grateful dahil nagpasasabihan ko rin naman kayo, don't put all the credits to me. 😩
eustace:
I know
But I'm really thankful, ya know?
meiziah:
YES
I LOVE YOU
PERO
SHARE KA NA hihi
eustace:
right...
These past few days hindi
nga kami nag-uusap ni Trent right?
Pero kahit hindi kami nag-uusap, I admit it na palagi akong naghihintay ng messages niya. I don't want to look like I'm desperate kaya naman never akong nag message first. I'm avoiding him, kaya naman nagulat na lang ako na bigla siyang nasa school, kahit wala naman siyang pasabi.
I let the words in my mind affect me, Casper told me and reminded me of his reputation as a guy before. I trusted Casper, and I don't want to ruin what we already have for almost four years, dahil lang sa bagong tao na pumasok sa buhay ko.
I'm in doubts, na baka pinaglalaruan lang ako ni Trent. I don't want to assume, pero hindi ba't nagpapakita naman siya ng motibo? And knowing his reputationg among girls made me doubt on myself.
Eto lang ako. I'm just someone who hang out with a group of girls with high profiles and reputation at school, just like you, Zayrel and even Quinn. I'm introverted and I never like approaching people. I'm in love with literature, and Trent probably thinks I'm a easy-girl since I'm not very confident about myself.
meiziah:
Eustace...
Is that really what you feel?
I'm crying rn. I'm sorry, the society hasn't been good towards you. Sumama loob ko, not because of you sharing your story but because of how you're feeling when you're around us. And the fact that Trent made you feel that way, I'm really agitated with the fact, that instead of boosting you and making you happy he made in you in doubts again.
He did you so bad, did Casper mention that it is his ways of getting a girl? Building up their confidence and at the same time breaking them?
I don't want to judge, pero nasasaktan ka Eustace. Hindi ko muna alam kung anong sasabihin, lalo na't hindi ko pa rin naman alam ang side ni Trent. Who knows, right?
eustace:
I want to talk to him. And sort out this heavy feeling inside of me. Gusto kong maalis na 'to, at siguro mag pretend na lang na hindi ko siya nakilala or nabangga nung unang beses na nagkita kami. I wanted to pretend that nothing really happened.
Pero ang masama...
I think... I like Trent, Mei.
Pakiramdam ko ay nahulog na agad ako. Because that's a first that someone really shows their interest towards me, sa sobrang excited ako kung anong feeling, sa kung anong nararamdaman niyo tuwing may nagpapakita ng interes sa inyo, nadala agad ako at hindi ko na naisip kung sincere o totoo ba lahat.
meiziah:
I want you to realize some things. Hindi lang si Trent ang nagpakita ng interest sa 'yo, there were a lot of people. Even as of now. Baka hindi mo lang napapansin, or you were blinded by the fact of how impossible you think that someone will ever be interested on you.
You did sound like you're falling for him. Or maybe you did already. You have to settle things with him, Eustace. Para na rin sa ikabubuti mo, and to sort out that heavy feeling inside your heart.
eustace:
I know.
Pero, Mei...
May isa pang problema.
meiziah:
...
What is it?
eustace:
I think, I feel the same way towards Casper.
