Eustace Athena
12:02 AM
eustace:
12 AM, and you're still on my mind. I don't know, how do I start this, Cas? Okay, first of all, I don't exactly hate you for what you did. We were young. But I also don't exactly understand, why would you do that? Nung nakausap ko si Trenton last month about sa nangyari years ago, naliwanagan ako, na masyado akong nabulag sa pagiging ideal ng mga bagay kasama siya. All of those memories with him, were all about happiness until one day the tragic happened. Noong nasa senior year tayo, na-realized ko na maybe I'm really in love with you in the first place. Masyado lang akong nag deny dahil hindi ko rin matanggap na nakapakaraming tao, bakit sa best friend ko pa? But when my friends told me that it's obvious that you have the same feelings na buhayan ako. But it vanished immediately, when I realized that I feel the same way towards Trent. It's unfair, and very complicated to begin with. Walang sense, paanong nagkagusto ako sa dalawang tao? Paanong parehas ang nararamdaman ko sa dalawang tao?
I've been unfair too. Noong mga panahong nawala si Trent, aaminin ko na noon lang mas lumalim ang nararamdaman ko for you. It's really so stupid of me not to think twice on how I will made the situation more complicated than how it was before. Dahil alam kong okay naman tayo. Pero hindi convincing ang mga mata mo tuwing tinatanong kita kung hanggang ganoon na lang ba tayo? I loved you. We both loved each other. But it wasn't enough to make us stay. Masakit. I won't even try to deny it. But we have to separate our ways for our future. Kahit walang kasiguraduhan. Kahit walang iba, o wala kang i-welcome pa na iba. Walang assurance kung may babalikan tayong dalawa.
Casper we shouldn't do this. Hindi dapat natin inaayos ang isa't isa. We were not meant to fix each other. Let's fix ourselves first. Dapat tayo mismo, dapat satin muna magsisimula.
When Trent came into my life, and saw how he cares for me genuinely parang nakalimutan ko ang mga nagawa mo noon pa man para sa 'kin. I thought that finally, I have Trent with me. I finally have someone who understands me. But I was wrong. Because you were there. For all those times, noon pa man kahit wala pa siya. Naiintindihan mo na ako.
This won't be the last time, and this time it's a promise.
I'm sorry, and thank you. I'm really grateful for whatever we had. I love you, please take care of yourself.
sent.
