Why Me?(Matthew Espinosa Fanfic)

[18] First show disaster part 2

--Abigail--

"Matt?" I croaked out.

He was unconcious with a lot of blood on his arms. I started to cry. I covered my mouth and started to walk around in circles, trying not to think what Matt is getting himself into because of me.

I bumped into Nash and he hugged me. "Shh sh it's okay. He's gonna be alright." He said softly.

"This is my fault Nash."

"No its not. This is his choice. He's doing this to himself. You have nothing to do with it."

"Yes i do. If i never existed, none of this would've happened."

"Don't say that! Let's go get to the hospital." He said breaking apart the hug.

My eyes were red and swollen, and filled with tears. My vision started getting blurry.

"Hey you alright?" Shawn asked.

"Shawn its my fault that Matthew is in the ambulance! Isn't it? Don't lie to me!" I asked him with a shaky voice.

"No. It's not your fault. Not at all." He said reasurring me.

"Let's go before the guys leave us." He said pulling me by my wrist.

I pulled out my phone and went on twitter.

(@AbigailGrier> #prayformatt ... He's going through some hard times atm...

I hope he's ok.

We all piled in a total of 2 taxis and rushed to the hospital. We went to the waiting room and waiting until 9:30 until we could go see Matt.

We all piled in the room to see Matt asleep. Everyone sighed in relief that he was ok.

I sat beside his bed and grabbed his arm to see what he did. He had stitches on both his arms, but mostly his right. I looked up at his face.

"We'll leave you two for awhile." Nash said softly smiling and pushing everyone out.

I nodded and continued looking at Matt.

I lightly put my finger over his cuts, feeling them. I started playing with his hand. I would rub circles, wiggle it, or have his hand hold mine.

I started to feel his arm again.

"That hurts ya know." He said wincing in pain.

"Matthew." I said softly hugging him. "I missed you."

"But i was here all along."

I broke apart the hug and sat back down. "I missed your voice. Your smile. Your happiness." I said low for the last part

"How come you said no?" He said after awhile.

"Because you were being forced to ask me. You probably didn't mean it." I told him.

"I did mean it. I did want to go out. But i was scared of being rejected. So i went to Cameron for help. And so the way i asked you was by a game of truth or dare." He explained.

I looked down. "I'm sorry... for everything."

"What did you do wrong?"

"Everything. I'm the reason you cut."

"No it's not."

I got up and started walking towards the door. "It is the reason Matt. Stop lying to me."

Before he could say anything, I left the room.

"Hey Is he awake? The doctor said we can take him home if he is." Cameron asked.

"uh yea... He is." I said trying to smile.

"Well let me go get him, and we could get going." He smiled.

I nodded and sat down next to Nash.

"I told you he'd be fine." Nash said softly.

~Authors Note~
Update tommorow too! See you later! .xx