Why Me?(Matthew Espinosa Fanfic)

[12] I'm sorry.

--Abigail--

We were halfway through the movie when Nash and Matt showed up.

Matthew.

Why did i ever trust him? Why did i even fall for him?

I gave him a glare.

He looked down.

I felt bad for him. I did.

But what he did was really...
Ughh its like... i got stabbed?

I felt my phone vibrate.

Nash:

He really is sorry.

You know that right?

Abigail:

Sure he is.

Nash:

He is!

He cried even more when you left.

He looked like a miserable pup.

Abigail:

Really?

Nash:

I swear!

Abigail:

Well guess what? You can tell him to stop trying to make everything up. I'm also gonna start listening to you.

Plus, i don't like matt anymore. Or at least im trying to get over him. Yes, its hard. but im trying and i will get over him.

Nash:

Do you think i'm lying? Ever since that kid in the 4th grade started to like you, i've been that over protective brother. I wouldn't let you go for ANY guy. Especially my friend. Im letting you go after Matt.

Abigail:

Even if you said hes no good? What about Shawn? You never said anything about Shawn. I'm gonna try him first if matt doesn't get to me.

Nash:

Shawn is amazing. But Matthew really likes you. And you putting him down as... well 'i hate you dont talk to me' would kill him. It would kill me.

Abigail:

Idgaf about matt ok? JUST LEAVE ME ALONE IM DONE

"You alright?" Taylor asked.

Why would he ask tha-

I had a tear roll down my cheek.

I hate how sensitive i am. Ughh

"Uhm uh yea..." i said standing up. "Im gonna go walk around.. somewhere..."

"Want me to come with?" Shawn asked looking up at me.

"Uh no-no thanks... im fine alone.." i looked around to see the guys looking at me, and some watching the movie. Matthew wasn't here.

He must've left.

I went to my luggage to get out my phone charger.

I left it in the room. Dang it.

With a dying phone, i walked out of the room and headed back to my old room. I entered the room to hear someone in the bathroom.

"You stupid kid why the fuck you always ruin stuff? First you mess up a younow for your fans, now you mess Abigail up?" I heard the boy sobbing.

Matthew?

I continued to listen as i leaned against the wall.

"You idiot. You took make her feel horrible. Because of your stupid ass #askmattftabigail , she got a lot of hate. A lot that made her realize she wasn't good for the world. That he should've killed herself." He still said sobbing.

"I ruined the chance again," he started.

Chance? What chance?

"The chance to be with her."

He continued to sob more.

And since i had feelings myself, i started to cry.

It was also my fault he's feeling this way. Its my fault he feels like he's done wrong. If only i would've never existed.

I slid down the wall and brought my knees to my chest.

I was still crying.

We were only here for a day and im sure all of the liquid from my tears could create a pretty big river by now.

"I'm sorry." Matthews voice now said shaky.

I looked up to see him above me.

"Im sorry Abigail. I really am." He said again.

I couldn't speak. i went around him to look for my charger.

"I said im sorry." he said with a still shaky voice.

"I heard you the first time." i said low.

I unplugged my charger and looked down, heading toward the door.

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him.

"Abigail i'm sorry." he said with a tear rolling down his cheek.

"I am too." I said looking down then up. matt had a slight smile. "I'm sorry that i exist and that i ruin your lives by going on this stupid tour that i've ruined for you guys."

Matthews smile faded away.

I let go of his grasp and left the room.

Why do i even exist.

~Authors note~
*MATTHEW AND ABIGAIL WILL NOT BE FRIENDS UNTIL A COMMENT APPEARS**
And its just ONE(1) simple comment. Okay? Okay. See you guys tomorrow(Saturday)/later(Tuesday)