Can't relate

The truth

Sometimes i wonder why everyone are so cruel to each other. This days people care only for themselves. It's just getting harder and harder to fit in the society and if you don't they judge you for being different. My mom once told me 

'You will never fit in the society and if you do they will find sooner or later of your past. They will find how your dad beats you until you beg for mercy. They will feel sorry for you and you will be emotionless as me,praying for your child to never experience the things you did. I love you my little girl,be strong never let anyone to break you. Bye' she closed her eyes and they never opened again. I wanted to cry,but i never had the chance to do it. She was my hero and she will always be. 

I heard a machine biping next to me,i was in the hospital,not ready to open my eyes and see the people feeling sorry for me. After 5 minutes a doctor came and i had to open them.

I saw him,Jackson looking directly to me,for the first time he was not emotionless,he had something driving him again. Something or someone. He was alive again,all the emotions in his eyes filling the room with joy. He smiled at me for the first time,he let the emotions to control him again,a big mistake that will cost him more then he thinks in the future.

"Hello,I'm Dr. Hans" i tried to lift the corner of my lips and i thought i did it,but maybe i just imagined it. "You have some serious injures,but you will get better in a few weeks. We're still not sure when you can go home,but at least for now you need to stay here a week or more." he smiled and left. I saw the clock on the wall - 12pm. 

"Hey,how do you feel?" Jackson asked and came closer to me. I felt my throat dry as fuck. 

"Good. Can you pass me the water?" he nodded and gave me a bottle of water. "So did you actually killed him?" i asked. I hate Matthew he is the most selfish person. I don't know why I did everything he told me,I'm being so soft lately.

"No,we actually didn't,i want him alive." i did all of this for nothing? He wanted him alive? I could've made it much easier for myself.

I heard someone coming ,a nurse and Alexander. I tried smiling again,but i think this time it worked. 

"Hi,i will just check up everything and leave you guys to talk" the nurse - Ella i saw her name on the tag she was wearing. Her hair looked golden from the sun and her blue eyes were sparkling with joy. She was happy. She moved so gently like she was a fairy. I think all the meds are showing their effect on me.

"Okay,so everything seems alright. Lunch is in 20 minutes" she said that and left the room. I saw that there was another bed next to me,but no one was on it. I hope they don't put anyone with me i hate company like that. 

"So...if you want we can leave you to rest and maybe we can come later" Jackson said

"No,you can stay" i tried smiling again and this time I'm on hundred percent sure it was a successful

Now when they're sitting closer to each other i can see how different they are. From hair,face shape to every move they made. They're completly different and still they somehow found each other. One think was the same in both,they looked emotionless. Jackson's full of joy face was gone. 

But Alexander's eyes always showed something - sadness. I don't know what happened in the past,but he always looked sad. At first i couldn't see it,but after some time this was the only thing i saw. I wanted to ask him why,but the right moment never came. 

"What are you thinking about?" Alexander asked. Both of them turned their attention towards me. 

"Nothing,I-i just don't know what to do" this was pretty much the truth.
Hospitals are so boring,i can't just sleep all day.