Can't relate

Danger

I woke up from something breaking up and of course the time was 3am. There's no way i can fell asleep so i went to check what happened. I saw someone in the kitchen so i went there. Jackson.

He was holding a broom trying to clean something he dropped.

"What did you drop?" he jumped. I thought i will never see him being scared from something. But i guess is normal to be scared from someone talking to you from nowhere at 3am in a mansion...

"A glass and why are you awake?" he looked pretty tired,maybe he didn't even go to bed. Being a mafia boss is not an easy job. So many people work for you and you have to organize every mission.

"I don't know,i just woke up" a smile formed on his face. He is showing emotion again? What happened to the emotionless Jackson. "Why the fuck are you smiling?" he giggled now that's new. Giggling and Jackson is never a good combo.

"Do you want something to eat? I can make pancakes or eggs" i like this Jackson better. He is carrying and calm.

"Yeah pancakes will do the job. I have a question" he nodded so i can continue "Where is the bad and angry Jackson? I think someone kidnapped him,but i like this version more we can keep him,what do you think?" he smiled. His eyes lit up for a moment before he put his emotionless face again.

"The night makes me calmer i guess" he smiled again,but this time the smile was not as real. He was holding his self from all the emotions he feels. It's better that way,but in the same time it's bad. He can't show his real emotions,because everyone will think he is soft.

"You know you're safe with me" he was confused for a moment. Every person i've met,was emotionally unstable,not that I'm not one of them. He is actually the first one i can't read.

Every day the light in his eyes was different,every day was darker and darker. Like he was losing everything,but no one could see it. He was in pain that no one understands. The emotional pain is much worser than physical pain...

"I will never be sa-" he stopped talking,i was confused but after a second i heard a gun. Someone is in the house? With so many guards and someone sneacked in the house?

"What was that?" i asked,he put this finger on my lips so i can stop talking.

"Stay here i will check who the fuck is in my house. Grab that" he whispered and gave me a gun. Before grabbing one for himself. He looked calmed,but i know deep down he is scared.

I was not sure what to do,so i thought i will go with him. He was walking like i cat,i couldn't hear his steps. But he heard me and stopped walking. He turned towards me and grabbed my waist

"Go to my office and you will find something like a phone on my desk push the red button" he whispered and without any other words we left the spot and he went in a small room i haven't been to. I quickly ran to his office. The object he told me about was on his desk i pushed the button and something like alarm went off. I was scared if i did something wrong,but i didn't.

I opened the office door and so many people were coming in the house. They were quiet as cats too. After a minute of me looking at every person coming in the house i saw a familiar face coming towards me. Alexander and Victorio behind him.

"We don't have time,go to the car and wait for Jackson. When he comes drive away as fast as possible. Now go and be ready,understand?" i nodded and i ran through the door and to Jackson's car. He had the fastest car I've ever seen.

I put my belt and started the car so i can be ready when he comes.

Five minutes after i went to the car i saw him coming. His whole face and hands were covered with blood. In the second he sat in the car i started driving. When i tell you his car is fast i mean pretty fast. In the begging i had no control over it,but i had to collect myself and drive as fast as possible. After thirty minutes of silent and driving like never before he put his hand in the air for me to stop,just in time i saw a parking so i stopped there.

He was looking out of the window,his hand on his head. I wanted to ask many questions but i had to ask only one.

"What happened?" my voice cracked,the only person who could've hear me was him. He just shook his head and looked me in this eyes. He was so tired emotionally and physically. For the first time i can understand him. He was showing emotions.

"We lost him,i lost him" he yelled,the anger building in him

I was not sure who 'him' was

"Matthew will kill-" he looked away, i saw the anger starting to control more and more of him.

"Hey,hey calm down. I know this sounds stupid but-" of course he had to interrupt me

"You want me to calm down,of course it's stupid. Don't you understand? He is going to kill you" his yelling made me feel like i was back to my dad. Every moment was coming back to me. Every scream of pain,every tear,every bruce...

But why me?

"Stop questioning yourself. The fuck why are you so slow,he wants you,every mafia boss wants you and they will never stop trying to get you"

I was so special? They want me now after everything I've been through. They will be the same as my dad,they will abuse me every day just for the information.

"Move,i will drive" i wanted to scream,to kill someone,but we can't get everything we want. That's not how the world works.

We drove away my tears were trying to escape. For the first time since i came to Jackson i was crying. I thought i was going to cry every day because he will abuse me,but i wasn't right.

I felt somoene lifting me up. Jackson. I saw that we were in a parking lot again,but in a motel.

I closed my eyes and the next thing i felt was the warm room we were in. A blanket over me. I wanted to ask Jackson what are we going to do but i saw him smocking outside,it's better to leave him alone.

The only thing i knew in that moment was that I'm in danger and the only person who can safe me was Jackson.

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I know it's short,but i don't have time today. I will try to make the next one longer <3