Safe Now - DreamxReader

Chapter 10

You stand on the edge. The cold wind in my hair making my cheeks go freezing cold from the semi dried up tears. Life was hard. You didn't want to live. Everything was going terrible.

I am not good enough.
I want to die.
You will never be worthy.
You are not loved.
You will never be more than a stupid kid.

The words played on repeat through your head. It only pushes your urge to step. You are one step from ending everything. 

The cold wind and rain stung the open wounds on your wrists. The pain was almost the worst you have felt.

You stand there sobbing. Everything seemed to be moving slow. There was flashing blue and red lights below you and people scrambling around like little ants.

You hear sudden footsteps behind you. You see someone running at you with their arms up.

I don't want to die.
This was all a mistake.
I am so stupid for this.

You think but it is too late. You see a blue and silver cop uniform on the person who pushed you. The wind going through your hair as you are falling backwards. Your stomach feels like it has a pit that is never ending. Everything was in slow motion, the stars above you seemed very bright. The rain was landing on your cheeks as the bright building lights surround you.

The breath was escaping your lungs as you suddenly blackout...

You wake up in a white room. Lights blinded your eyes so you squinted to get a better view. You look down at your arms and see an IV and patched up scars. You quickly know you are in a hospital. You quickly stand up and tug out your IV and rip off your bandages. A doctor quickly walks in and calls security. He tries to hold you to the bed but your thrash around and finally get a good kick on him. You try and run but you were ripped back and held to the bed screaming and crying by security guards.

The guards hold you to the bed until you calm down which took time.

"She's a mentally ill patient! Be careful!" the doctor would yell at them but they used force, keeping you tight against the bed and grabbing your arms which make you wince in pain.

"Let go of me!" you would yell but they never listened.

When you calmed down, you were terrified to move. Your healing scars were bleeding from the hands of the guards. The doctor brought you some bandages and gave you some pain meds.

"I am so sorry. I understand. You are scared, thats okay," the doctor said. I just kicked him, why would  he be so nice you thought. He sends the guards out the door and you see someone walk inside. Jay. "I hope you don't mind, he signed as your boyfriend and since you are awake he came," the doctor said. You nod and Jay walks over and asks for some alone time. The doctor leaves the room and Jay shuts the doors blinds.

"What the hell were you thinking?!" he whisper yells. "You think killing yourself is the answer?" he says. He slapped my cheek. The cold and sharp pain made you wince. Tears fill your eyes as you look at Jay.

"I am so sorry Jay I-"

"Just. Be quiet Y/n. I am going home," he says walking out of the room. You sit there and cry, trying not to get the bandages wet.

The doctor walks in and looks at you with sorrow in his eyes. He gives you a tissue and sits at the foot of your bed.

"I know it has been hard," he says softly. "Know, it is going to be okay. You are going to be okay," he says smiling and patting your leg. He stands and walks out of the room.

You were left in that hospital bed for a few hours on your phone, looking through Facebook and Twitter. You checked Twitch and Dream was live. You press on it and him and George were doing a speedrun. You looked up to Dream so much, his streams lightened your day. You sat there watching him and George speedrun for hours. You laughed and smiled. They made you the happiest you have been in months. You don't know where you would be without them.