Clouded thoughts (Shikamaru x reader)

Phony Calls

I looked at my phone that kept blowing up, thanks to Shikamaru. I sighed and picked it up.

"For fucks sake what do you want Shikamaru?" I said. "woah woah is that anyway to talk to me". I could hear him snicker. "How'd you get my number" I asked ignoring his last statement. "I got it from Naruto who got it from Hinata or something like that" he laughed faintly. "anyways, who was that fucker you were with?" he asked his tone suddenly got more serious. " Why do you care?" I pressed on curious of why he sounded so serious.

"Because I care about you (Y/N)" he said in a sympathetic tone. "Nice joke" I laughed. "I'm being serious" he said. " A dick like you could never be serious" I snorted. "Weren't you just rearranging some girls gut yesterday?" I pressed on. "Shit, you saw that? My bad my bad" he said, I swear I could here a faint laugh. "My bad? That's all you have to say?" I said the longer I stayed on the phone the more angry I got. "I mean, What do you want me to say (Y/N)" he asked "Do you want me to tell you I'm sorry? We weren't eve dating and you left right after" Did I leave right after? I don't remember doing that "What are you saying? I stayed the night?" I said. "Yeah and then you left once you woke up" I had enough of this conversation, was this man seriously trying to gaslight me and make it look like he was the victim? 

"Shikamaru, it doesn't matter, you can sleep with whoever you want and I can date whoever I want, stop playing the fucking victim and leave me alone" I hung up right after that. I was mad at myself for sleeping with him but I can't say I regret it. I worked about half an hour on my english project, typing about how stupid and fake love is. I then heard a knock on my window. Was it Hinata? Or maybe Suigetsu? I tugged at the blinds and opened the window and in came Shikamaru he was wearing grey sweatpants and a black hoodie he held a cigarette in his hand and a bag in the other. I stared at him for a minute.

"What?" he asked looking at me. I had so many thoughts racing through my mind. I walked to him and grabbed the lit cigarette out of his hand. "What are you doing? If my parent's find out they'll kill the both of us." I hissed at him. "Is that an invitation to meet your parents?" he smiled pulling me in closer. "Shikamaru I can't-" Before I could even finish my sentence he met my lips with a passionate kiss. 

My brain was yelling at me to stop but I was enjoying this kiss. I liked being embraced by Shikamaru. His fingers caressing my neck and jawline. The guy I met on the rooftop has never looked so vulnerable. I pushed him off me. "Shikamaru, please we can't". I knew the longer I stayed with him the more I'd fall in love with him and that would be ridiculous. "okay, okay" he said backing off a bit and putting his hands in the air. He grabbed the bag that was lying on the floor. "Here, I felt bad about the things I said over the phone so I brought you some stuff". He placed the bag in my hands. I opened it there were chips, pops, candy and a small stuffed bear. How cliche. I rolled my eyes and looked up at him. 

I could see a hint of sadness in his eyes. He grabbed me so I was facing him, eye-to-eye. He looked down at my neck and there he saw the necklace. "Who gave this to you" he asked. I couldn't look him in the eye. I didn't do anything wrong but I still kinda felt guilty. I stared at the floor and said "My boyfriend" Shikamaru paused "your boyfriend?"his tone was soft but sharp. "Yeah my boyfriend" I replied. "who?". "Suigetsu" I said. Maybe if I told him who, he would leave me alone. I looked up at him. "No way, Suigetsu? you should break up with him" he said shaking his head and backing off. "Why? If your jealous just say so." I shouted. "He's a player" Shikamaru said. "your one to talk" I scoffed. "No, seriously (Y/N) I don't want you to get hurt" he said in a somewhat sympathetic tone.

I rolled my eyes, here we go again. I was gonna lose it " Can you stop acting like that? Stop acting like you care and you weren't just fucking somebody on the rooftop yesterday, why do you care who I date?". "Did he fully come out and say your his girlfriend" he pressed on. I stared at nothing lost in thought "well, no but i've known him forever and he even gave me a necklace" I said. Shikamaru scoffed " Almost every guy thinks of fucking or dating there bestfriend your not special".  Again I was staring at nothing, it's true that Suigetsu has never talked about the girls hes liked in the past, All in all now I was starting to think that Shikamaru had a point. He then pulled me out of my thoughts saying " if you don't want me to get hurt why were you fucking somebody on the roof yesterday?!" I said raising my voice. "to forget about you, I thought you would leave to". I was in shock. "What-?" I asked conShikamaru being straight forward? That's never happened before. "Your not even officialy dating the guy, give it a rest" he said "One small date doesn't suddenly lead to boyfriend & girlfriend". 

I groaned "Okay you have a point, now what?"He grinned "well actually i'm pretty smart and I was thinking of doing some of the assignment" no wayyy "are you being for real?" I asked, shocked as hell. "Of course I am" he smiled "But we're doing it under the stars, I think it'll help with writing or something like that" under the stars? I've never thought of that. "Sorry we're going to have to sneak out though" he said rubbing the back of his neck. I turned off my lights and grabbed some papers, blankets and snacks stuffing them all into a plastic bag. "Okay but we're doing this as friends, no making moves on me or anything" I said. "yeah yeah I promise" he said smiling.