Don't Be Like Me || ✔️

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❕warning ❕: sensitive topic
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Jimin was seated in the dance practice room. Scrolling through his feed when a small edit video popped up. It was a video from Bangtan Bomb that was posted a couple of years ago.

Hoseok pinching Jimin's cheek while he was asleep. Jimin scowled. Hating how he looked. With his hair swiped to the side and his cheeks glowing. Hoseok pinching his cheeks making it seem like dough.

He was squeezing fats from his cheek. Jimin gulped. Glancing back at the mirrors across him.

He had been wanting to lose weight. He tried all the methods he could. Exercising, Diet and even cutting on carbs, sugar, and oily things.

Exercising was difficult since the schedule was always packed. Keeping on a diet was also impossible during their concerts. Their backstage food has always been unhealthy food. He would have to be stuck with salad after or before the concert which pissed him off.

He wanted to try all the food in the world but he would gain weight. At first, he thought being called a mochi would be cute but after a while, he just started hating it.

That's when the bad eating habits came in. He only ate a meal at the start of the week and would start himself for the rest. He doesn't eat anything and drank water till he felt full. He would go to the gym and exercise for hours and come back home straight and went to bed.

Even during concerts or variety shows. He wouldn't eat even a small grain of rice. If it was a challenge for something to get food. He would act as if he wanted the food but was purposely losing. He relied on vitamins and sometimes his stomach cramps were so bad. He would shove melatonin and sleep it out.

He fainted, too many times. Some even to the point he wasn't gaining consciousness for 3 days straight. Yet, he still kept to the diet plan. Things got increasingly worse when he lost the color on his face and that he couldn't any longer walk normally. He fell and tripped many times. Migraines and aches all around his body.

Jin tried to get him to eat and the other members also started noticing something off.

He managed to gain back his healthy weight after losing 6kg. But after being on watch with his meals. He got back his cheeks but he was going to go gradually this time. So the members won't interfere. All of this was just so he could finally feel good about himself. 

He ate lesser rice and carbs each day and his goal was to reach nothing except a meal for every week. It was the best option for losing weight fast. He did it once but failed so he'll do it again.

Despite all the insecurities, there's more than just to lose weight. He had severe depression and anxiety back in high school after his teachers set high standards for him. He was the leader of the dance club and he had to the jungle with his studies and family.

He wasn't a rich kid. Sometimes, they can only afford crackers and milk for the entire day. His parents both struggled with the house bills and putting food on the table. The very moment his father fell too sick to work. He dropped out of school for 2 months straight to get as many part-time as possible. That wasn't until his teacher showed up in the cafe he was working in and told him to come back to school. He told the teacher his problems and his teachers told him he will pay for the school fees for the rest of the year and Jimin tried to push the offer, saying he was okay with his current living but the teacher insisted.

He was grateful for the teacher that he tried his best in school and tried to be top in class at all times. But dance is usually in the morning and after school, so many of his friends would be asleep in class as he struggled to stay awake. The pressure got increasingly worse when he also had to work for the 3 jobs right after school and get back home to study for exams.

He failed after getting top for months and his mother told him to work harder and stop slacking with got to his nerves and led to a huge argument. He always kept things to himself to the point it brought up to where he is now.

He is still struggling with many things and having to take care of his brother alone now that both of his parents were gone.
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Jimin got to the gym early in the morning. The members finally got off his back from the tracked meals. He got to the gym with nothing in him. He hadn't eaten anything for an entire week and was getting his meal once again on Monday.

He worked out, carrying weights and everything in the gym that he could get his hands on. He drank up water.

But when he stood up. His vision got blurry. Her head hurt a lot when he did the other exercise but he ignored it. He stumbled more before falling on the ground. The other people there rushed to him. Asking him if he was okay. Jimin couldn't respond. Everything was spinning. He was breathing hard too.

"Sir! You alright there? Sir!" The owner of the gym called. Jimin eyes were still opened so they didn't call the ambulance. Letting Jimin calm down. The owner got him to rest against a mat while leaning against a wall. Letting him drink up more.

"Sir, let me call someone. I can't have you go home like this." Jimin contemplated on who to call and decided on Hoseok.
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"Hello? Ah, yes. Okay, I'll be there" Hoseok said. Leaving the dance room to the gym.

Hoseok came and got him in his car.

"You feeling okay? You don't look well." Hoseok said. Jimin forced his eyes open. Still very foggy and dizzy.

"I'm on a diet. I forgot to eat my vitamins" Jimin said. Hoseok shook his head.

"You know you are cutting on carbs. Take it easy from now on. Okay?" Hoseok said. Jimin nodded. Learning against that car and shutting his eyes.

Hoseok got him home and ensured he was alright and checking up on him two times before heading back to the dance studio. Taehyung waiting there.

Taehyung needed some help so Hoseok stayed to help him.

"Where did you go?" Taehyung asked

"I had to pick Jimin up from the gym. He almost passed out after exercising" Hoseok explained while stretching.

Taehyung frown. Immediately feeling something off.
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