𝐵𝑒𝐹𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑈𝑠🥀... ( Min Yoongi x Reader )

" No judging Zone❌"

Y/n : " as I filled my cup to the top , I took a sip . " so you want to know everything? Like everything? "

Yoongi: " yes ma'am. Don't hold anything back ."

Y/n : " well this isn't a judging zone then . "

Yoongi: " of course not . It's just us 2 ."

Y/n : " alright . So let's start with this . I'm not a virgin . I regret losing my virginity a lot . The guy I lost it too , never really liked me . Our friendship was really good , & if we're being honest , that's why I gave it up to him . I thought I could trust him but I thought wrong . I thought It wasn't anything special so I just gave it to him . He would treat me bad & say shit like " I'm not pretty " or " I'm a bitch " . My self confidence was already low & The crazy thing is , I wanted his validation so bad I allowed it & kept staying . He would only call me when he wanted sex & like a dumb bitch I went . When I started to argue back & defend my self , he pulled up a recording he took of me when we had sex & I never knew about it . He showed everyone. Even his friends & posted it on social media . So everyone I knew looked at me a certain way & I was labeled a whore & a slut throughout my old life back home . "

Yoongi: " wow I-I'm so sorry. " that's fucking disgusting. How can a guy do some shit like that ? Especially to someone like her ? ... that's crazy ... she didn't deserve that at all ... " What else happened?" I asked getting upset .

Y/n : " guys kept asking to be " friends " & throwing their selves at me . I got death threats from fake pages & I constantly got attacked by it everyday . During that time , I recently lost a friend who got shot in the chest twice . So I was dealing with grief & my own problems . I would cry every night & wake up & act normal & my family never noticed . Never even asked if I was ok . I felt like I couldn't breathe so I tried to kill myself . I would cut my self with a razor blade when I got the chance . It would cut me but it wouldn't cut deep enough like I wanted . I never told anyone about what was going on , I still haven't until this day but Simone & now you . I tried to over dose on pills but that didn't work out either . Simone found me in my room & dragged me to the bathroom & put me in the tub & turned the shower on . I ended up waking up which I didn't want but hey I guess it was a sign . "

Yoongi : I could hear the pain in her voice . This is the pain I felt when I touched her . Wow I never even would of guessed. " I-I don't even know what to say . Go on let it out . I'm listening "

Y/n : I drunk more wine & started eating my food. Tears fell out my eyes but I wiped them & continued to tell him what happened. " So it was this other guy I started messing with 2 years later after the first one I told you about . He was no different either but the difference with him was , he would beat on me & manipulate me too . I know I'm fucking stupid but allowed it because I wanted his validation of love too . He would punch me , he even broke my phone & he broke my glasses because I told him I wasn't gonna have sex with him anymore . I got scared because he held me at gun point once & threatened to come to my house so I slept with him again . After I went home he texted me & told me he wasn't gonna use it , that he was using it to scare me . So after that, I blocked him on everything & never seen him again . About a week later , another recording of me that I didn't know of was taken along with nudes I sent were on social media as well . Same shit happened again but this time , " some of my friends" would send the recording around & made it worst . The cycle of me trying to kill myself never ended . I started to cut my legs too & I hid the cuts so still no one ever knew what was going on with me because I hid it so well . "