3rd Gymnasium (Kuroken, Bokuakaa, Tsukihina) ft. Iwaoi

Chapter 16

Kenma's POV

IT'S really hurt to see him laughing with a pretty girl. He looks really enjoying their conversation. I saw him look at me. He smiled at me but I ignore him. I feel like crying now. Dammnit!

"You okay kenma-san?" Lev asked. I didn't notice that he walked to me. I just looked at him and nodded.

"Kenma-san. You don't have to pretend. We already know." Lev said. I look at him in confusion.

"Lev is right kenma. We already Know that you love kuroo and you're hurting watching him having fun with Alisa. Kenma.. listen." Yaku said and hold my hand.

"We're all here for you. Okay? If you need someone. Call us. We will never judge." He said. I duck my head. I saw our coaches listening to us.

"I- i don't know what your talking about--" Yamamoto cutted me off.

"Shut it kenma! Your already hurt! And we can see that clearly! Stop pretending! We're your friends! We're willing to help you! Please! Stop being like that! " Yamamoto quietly snapped. I sighed. My eyes are trembling. The tears are threatening to burst out but I pushed it back

"I'm sorry." I mumbled.

"It's okay kenma-san." Lev said smiling.

"Please. Don't tell him please, just act normal. Please!" I pleaded looking at their eyes. They sighed as defeat and they nodded. I forced a smile.

"Let's go back to practice. " I said and started walking back to the center. My eyes dropped where the coaches are. They give me a smile saying that everything will be alright. I just nodded and forced myself to practice. I'm thankful that the coaches are okay with it though. Time by time, I found my eyes looking at the laughing Alisa and kuroo. My heart clenched. Then a body blocked their view. I look up and see Kai standing there looking at me.

"Stop looking at them. You're just hurting yourself. " He said. I chuckled, a sad one.

"I know. I just can't help it. " He sighed as I walked away and practice again till they said that we're going to wrap up. I even saw Alisa and kuroo together cleaning some things. I sighed. Then we walked to clubroom. They we're teasing kuroo and kuroo keeps on laughing and blushing. In that sight. I want to cry! I want to leave!! I know our members just doing that because I told them to act normal. But it's still hurt. Then he told me that he's not walking with me today. I feel like my broken heart broke even more to tiny pieces. I just told them that I don't care and walk away. I heard some of my members calling my name but I ignore it until they catch me up.

"What are you guys doing?" I asked them.

"We want to make sure that you're okay. " Yamamoto said.

"I'm okay--" I didn't finish my sentence when fukunaga cover my mouth.

"Don't ever say that you're okay even though you're not." He said and remove his hand. I sighed. We walked in silent until we reached my house. I stopped and looked at them.

"Thank you for walking me home. But seriously. You guys don't have to." I said.

"But we want to." Yaku said. I sighed on defeat.

"Anyway, thank you again. I'm going inside " I said and enter our house. They wave a good bye to me and I also wave at them before closing the door. I run upstairs to my room and locked it before crying on my bed. Covering my mouth preventing to make a loud noise. I don't want to bother my parents but it's really hurt.

Can you believe it? I fell in love with my best friend and I just know it yesterday! I want to scream the pain! But I can't! I feel my heart broke into pieces. Into tiny pieces!! I keep on crying and crying just to remove all the pain that I have until I didn't know that I fell asleep.

I woke up, I tried to reach phone from my lamp desk. I open it and it's still 2:30 in the morning. I sighed and throw myself back to my bed. I stared at my ceiling. Alisa and kuroo's moments are keep on flashing in my mind. I tried to remove it but it keeps on reminding me how pathetic I am. Kuroo will never like or love me more than a friend! He's not even gay! He likes a beautiful lady like Alisa! He will never be mine...

A tear fell on my eyes, I wiped it away and stand up. I remember that I didn't get to Change my clothes last night. I take a quick shower then walked to the kitchen. I'm hungry. I didn't get to eat last night. As soon as I walked outside my room. It's dark. That's why I turn on the flashlight on my phone and silently walk towards the kitchen. I turn on the lights on the kitchen ONLY. I don't want to wake my parents because of the lights. I start searching for some foods. I open the fridge and saw what my mother cooked last night that they left for me. I grabbed it and put it in the heater. I waited for a few minutes until the ding sound. I carefully hold it and start eating. I really tried my best to think anything worried that I'll lost my appetite. As soon as I am done eating I walked back to my room and turn my switch on. Since I just get done eating I'm going to play for a few minutes before going back to sleep. My eyes fell to my mirror. I stared at my eyes. They're so red. I hope they will fade away tomorrow. I don't want them to ask me about this. I just really hope. I walked to my window and look at our neighbor house. Kuroo's house.

I love you more than a friend. I hope you know it.

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I honestly don't want to include Alisa in this. But I don't have a choice! Dammnit!