In the Flames of Desire

Chapter 9- Snowflake

Todoroki

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They kept me for a week, doing various tests, making sure my body was working the way it was supposed to. I guessed it was necessary but all I wanted to do was get home to Izuku. He came in everyday but they wouldn't let him stay the night with me. I hated them for it but I knew it was probably policy.

But he was always there in the morning as soon as I woke up. There had been damage to some of my organs but nothing that would cause long-lasting effects.

When I was finally discharged and allowed to go home, walking into that house was like a breath of fresh air.

Izuku's hand was in mine, holding on tightly. He pulled me up to his room... our room where I dropped off the rest of my bags with my clothes. Immediately he pressed up against me and kissed me.

I kissed him back, this time with no pain in my body. No sick feeling of death. I had overcome that. He kissed me passionately as if he had never done it before. As if he had been waiting an entire lifetime.

He started to claw at my shirt, struggling to lift it off of me. I broke away from him laughing.

"I think I should shower first, I still smell like hospital." He frowned at me, not letting go of my hand even as I went to walk towards the shower.

"I don't mind it." He smiled, tugging me back to him- but I stopped him.

"Yeah but I do, love. I prefer to smell like you." I detached my hand from him, lifting off my shirt and tossing it on top of one of my bags. "But-" I put a hand on his face, kissing him gently on the forehead, "after, you can have me as long as you want." He beamed at me, nodding his head.

"Fine, but be quick." I chuckled, walking to the bathroom and closing the door. I tried not to remember the last time I was in here but my hand instinctively went to the small scar on my stomach.

It wasn't much bigger than pencil but it would always be a reminder of what almost happened to me. I sighed, turning on the water, letting it heat up. I looked at my reflection in the mirror.

I looked healthy, there was no pain but... but it was almost like I could still feel the grip of Okawa's shadows over me. In me. I hated it.

I would make sure he would never hurt anyone again. I sighed again, stripping off the rest of my clothes.

The water was warm as I stepped under it, I let it wash over me. Rinsing away the feeling of the shadows. I thought of Izuku.

That feeling of the shadows invading my body, I realized it's what Izuku must have felt for those years with Okawa. It was no wonder why he felt like he couldn't leave. I wondered if he could still feel the presence of his darkness.

I still wasn't sure how much Izuku was comfortable with. It was obvious to me that he was fine with kissing but we hadn't gone further than that- not that we had the time but even still; I wasn't sure what he was okay with.

Of course I wanted him, my desire for him was stronger than anything else. Just the feeling of his touch on my skin set me on fire. I was at him mercy for whatever he wanted. I'd wait as long as he wanted me to. As long as he needed.

I didn't know the full extent of trauma that Okawa left him with but I would be with him as he healed from all of it. I'd help him in any way I could.

The shampoo smelled like how a summer day would smell like. I lathered it in my hair and rinsed, letting the soap run down my body. I closed my eyes, letting the feeling of grime wash off of me. Letting the feeling of darkness crumble away.