It fucks you up mentally

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The next days and weeks went by so fast. I stayed at Rafa's home and lived there like it was my own. We shared the first typical 3 weeks of a relationship. We did a lot of things and we nearly talked about everything. Except one thing. My brother. Rafinha cared so much about me and brought me to a lot of different places that, to be honest, I didn't even have time to think about him.
One day, when Rafinha told me to get ready because he wanted me to come with him to training, I realized that I didn't have anything to wear. I'm not thinking like that, because that's a girly thing. I'm thinking like this, because all my other clothes were at Sergi's house. I couldn't wear the same things every third day. I had to go there. No matter what Rafinha is going to think about that. I just had to.

I decided to wear my yoga pants, my black&white Nike free combinated to a white basic shirt. These were the only things I didn't wear combinated like this before.

------- TRAINING ------
Rafinha took me with him to the locker room. I tried to talk to Sergio, but Rafinha stood near me all the time.
"María, are you coming?" Rafinha said as he was about to go onto the pitch.
"Yes one more minute amor,  Neymar wanted to tell me something about Bruna."
Neymar suddenly looked at me. You could see that he didn't know what I was talking about, but when I raised my eyebrow he knew that I wanted him to act.
-"oh yeah, I nearly forgot about that, sit down Mía it's a long story"
"Rafinha you don't have to wait I know where I have to go" I smiled at him as he just nodded and winked at me. As soon he shut the door, I thanked neymar and went over to Sergio.
"Sergio, I don't even want to talk to you to be honest, but I have to pick up my clothes today. Could you lay the keys under the door mat?"
-"oh you want to move to this asshole? You really want to live with him so that one day you come home from work and see him laying in bed with another woman? Is that your plan? You want to have kids with this hijo de puta.."
Before he could end his sentence, Neymar came over and slapped him.
"NEVER TALK ABOUT RAFINHA LIKE THIS AGAIN! HE'S BEEN YOUR BEST FRIEND AND YOUR DRAMA FUCKS HIM UP! YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT YOUR SISTER FOUND A BOY LIKE HIM"
I couldn't even watch these boys as they started fighting. They punched each other and my yelling didn't interest anyone. As Neymar got pushed to the locker, I screamed at Sergio.
"GO AWAY SERGIO WHAT KIND OF PERSON ARE YOU!? GO!!"
He ran away. I don't even think that he ran away because of bad feelings. He ran away because his lip bled. He is so egoistic.
I focused myself.
"Are you okay Ney? Your lips are bleeding as fuck"
I took a kleenex and tried to wipe it away. It was useless.
"I'm going to tell Rafa, stay here okay? Don't even dare walking after him!"
Neymar tried to stop me but I went onto the pitch anyway.
"RAFA!" I screamed like 3 times until everybody stopped running.
He nodded at me
"COME OVER, NEYMAR IS BLEEDING!"
I couldn't even blink when suddenly everybody was running towards me.
When we entered the locker room, Neymar layed on the bench, exactly like I left him.
"good boy" I smiled at him as I took another kleenex.  He smiled and winked even though he was totally knocked out.
"what happened?" Jordi asked
- "you don't have to tell them Mía" Neymar said, when I was going to open my mouth.
"But I want to" I said, as I started to tell them. They were all shocked. None of them excepted Sergio to be like this, except me and Rafa for sure. When all went back onto the pitch, Me and Rafa stayed with Neymar.
"Why did you even talk to him? I told you not t.." Rafa said kind of angry.
I interrupted him, but before I could say a word,Neymar talked.
"Rafa she was just asking him to lay the keys under the mat so that she could pick up her clothes later."
I looked at Rafa and nodded. In a way he was happy that I wanted to stay at his house, but he was also worried, or even sad because I was trying to talk to this monster without telling him. You could tell that he was more worried that happy. He came over and hugged me. "next time you tell me baby, he could've done the same to you if Neymar wouldn't have been there." he said to me, as he smiled at Neymar.
"obrigado irmão(thanks brother)" Rafinha said as he winked at Neymar. Neymar just nodded.
I kneeled down on the floor, so that I could look at Neymar, who turned his head to me.
"I'm so sorry Neymar, he shouldn't have beat you, I'm truly sorry for my brother, but thanks for defending me, you're a true friend." I said and gave him a soft kiss on his cheek.

___________RAFINHAS POV_____________

As we went home, the only thing I could think about was Mía. What if he would have slapped her? I was so happy that nothing happenend to her. But again, I was angry because of this asshole. I wish he wouldn't be her brother. I love her so much, but he is destroying everything. She misses him. A lot. Even after all the things he has done to her or even to Neymar, who just wanted to defend her, he is still his brother. I'm the reason why they're not talking. It's all my fault. What kind of boyfriend am I? BUT NO! Why am I thinking like that? RAFINHA STOP! It's his fault. He wants it that way. He pushes everyone away. I was so angry. I couldn't even focuse on driving. She realized.

''Amor what's wrong?, if the wheel was alive you would've already choked it'' she made me laugh. She was right. I tried to relax a bit as she put my hand on her thigh and held it tight.
- ''I'm angry..''
''You don't have to be. It's better not thinking about him''
- ''He's your brother. Sooner or later we are going to think about him again''
''I don't want a brother like this Rafa''
Even if I didn't want to, I raised my voice
- ''YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT HE'S YOUR BROTHER MARÍA''
She was shocked. I've never yelled at her before. And I didn't even wanted to.
- ''Sorry baby your brother just..'',
she interrupted me: ''fucks you up mentally?''
I didn't know what to say. She was right, but I didn't want to show her that I also had a blind side. I'm totally not the tough boy. I'm not at all.
I tried to talk about something else.
''Let's go pick up the rest of your clothes.'' I said as I turned the car. We had to do this now. I had to. I had to finish this.

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OMG ! 1k !!!! I AM SOOO THANKFUL! I neeever expected that this story is going to be read so many times! I started this story on december 14th and now, 2 months later, 1000 amazing people have read my story! THANK YOU EVERYONE!
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the Selecao
Rafinhas family
Mariás family
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