My brothers teammate [Rafinha Alcantara Fanfiction]

I'm a mess.

We all sat in Pique's living room and waited passionately for the champions league draw. We sat on the big sofa and the rest sat on chairs or sat on the ground. Their living room is big. 22 people are sitting in this living room and we still have enough place. They all talked about the teams and the last matches. They discussed if they could beat Juventus or if they could beat Munich. I didn't listen to them because the only thing I could look at was Rafinha. I think he realized that I stared at him but he looked at his hands the whole time. I couldn't stop it. I just had to stare at him. On the one hand I want to slap myself because I let him break up with me, or we both broke up, I don't know, but on the other hand it was right. It showed me how much I needed him. How much I love him. It showed me that I'm a mess without him. His phone rang and I came back to reality. It was Thiago. They talked in a spanish-portuguese mixture so sometimes I understood what he was saying and sometimes I didn't. Suddenly he turned his head and faced me.
''Yes, okay, see you, te amo'' he said as he held his phone in my direction. I frowned with a confused look. He did the ''I don't know''-gesture.
''Thiago wants to talk to you'' he said as I took the phone.
-''Hey Thiago!'' I said as friendly as I could. I really miss him. I missed his mom. His dad. I missed Bruno. I even missed Thaisa, who hates me more than any other.
-''You can't leave the Alcantára family Mía, we all miss you so much'' he said and some people in the backround talked in german. He's been in Barcelona for fathers day and it seems like he went back to Munich. I wish I would've seen him before. I didn't want Rafinha do hear what we were saying so I went into the kitchen.
''I wish I could turn back time, believe me Thiago...'' I said, trying to smile, but I couldn't. Being without Rafinha is so hard, and seeing him everyday is even harder.
-''Fight for him Mía! You know that you love him!''
''I do Thiago, but he doesn't want me back. I wish I could change his mind but it seems to be impossible'' I laughed. I should've done everything different. I should've thought about it before doing it.
--''MARÍA! COME BACK! IT BEGINS!''  Sergi screamed from the living room.
''Okay the draw starts, talk to you later, I will fight for him, I promise, good luck!'' I said and hung up as I went back into the living room. Rafinha didn't even look at me, he just held his hand out so that I could lay his phone back into his hand. I mumbled ''thanks'', took a blanket and sat next to him. I covered my body and half of his under the blanket. I have to show him that I need him.
The first team that they picked was PSG. We lost and won against them in the group. I grabbed his hand. Rafinha was shocked and looked at me confused, but I just looked straight to the TV.
''Paris Saint Germain is going to play against...the FC Barcelona!''
Some people started breathing out loud, they were happy. Most of them were scared of playing against Munich.
''No Munich - Barca match everybody!'' Dani cheered.
I looked over to Rafinha. He was happy too. Not because I held his hand, but because he didn't have to play against Thiago.
''No Alcantára match'' I whispered in his direction and he nodded with a little smile on his face. This was the first time he smiled at something that I said. And god, I felt all the butterflies in my tummy again. I blushed and looked away, but grabbed his hand even tighter. He coughed and freed his hand. I was sad. I really was. But then I felt his hand on my tigh. I looked over at him and he just squeezed it. I layed my hand onto his. I missed him. Very much.

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The time went by and the team discussed about tactics and line ups. I just pretend to listen to them but the only thing I could think about was Rafinha.
''So I think Atlético, Munich, Juventus and Barca, for sure, are going to be in the semi finals. Mía what about Juventus against Barca?'' Dani Alves said and brought me back to reality since I was just staring into space. I didn't hear him at first but Rafinha squeezed my thigh once again and I realized that Dani was waiting for an answer. Juventus against Barca?
''No!'' I laughed. ''But on the other hand one of my favorite teams will be in the finals then..that's good!''
-''Us for sure'' Sergi winked at me and everyone laughed. Sergi didn't stop looking at me and when our eyes met, he pointed at the blanket with his eyes and then he looked back at me with a confused look. I smiled and blushed. He smiled back. Sergi changed a lot and I'm so happy about it. If me and Rafinha would end up together again and Sergi would respect it everything would be better. It would be awesome. I smiled into space and didn't realize that they all went to the door to say goodbye to Vermaelen. The only once who stayed in the room were Pique, Sergi, Rafinha and me.
''H-Hey Pique show me your new room for Sasha'' Sergi said as he pulled Pique after him.
-''But I sent you pictures on Whatsapp before'' Pique said. He didn't understand that Sergi wanted me and Rafinha to be alone.
''Just show me the room éstupido'' Sergi laughed as they went upstairs.
Rafinha put his arm around me and I layed my head onto his chest. I closed my eyes, I just wanted to enjoy this moment. Who knows if I'll have this possibilty again.
''I heard what you and Thiago were talking about on the phone'' he whispered and brought me back to reality. As I looked up I saw a smiling Rafinha with these big brown shining eyes I've missed so much. I blushed because he heard that I said that I was going to fight for him. But on the other hand I was proud that I did it. I did the first step.
''I'm sorry for overreacting at your house Rafa''
-''I'm sorry for being a dick'' he said as he kissed my head and we both laughed when we realized that everyone was standing around the corner whispering things.
''You could never hit a bank Dani, how loud are you whispering?!'' Rafinha screamed and they all started laughing and came back into the living room. Shakira came over and gave me a kiss on my forehead.
''i'm proud mi nena'' she added and went back to the stairs and told the guys to come downstairs again. Me and Rafinha didn't had the chance to talk on because Shakira showed Sasha to me and I just wanted to hold him. He was so cute. He was as cute as Milan. These gens, huh.
''You are so beautiful Sash'' I smiled at the little baby that was looking at me with these cute little eyes. After looking at me for some time the lads started talking about football again.
After some time the door rang. Shakira went to open it and the girl that I hated the most came into the room. Manu.
"Meu amor where have you been, I searched for you everywhere!" she said as she leaned in and kissed him. He was shocked and backed down. So she's still here. And they still have a 'thing'. I freed my hand and stood up and the door rang again.
"Sit down Shak I'll open it, it can't get any worse" I said and mumbled the last part but they all understood. Dani laughed the loudest. As I opened the door Bruno and Bruna stood in front of me.
"Believe me María I wanted to stop her! I knew that you all stayed together today, Neymar told me, I wanted her to stay at the  hotel but she realized that something was wrong and went searching for Raf-"
-"Don't you worry, I'm okay" I said as I made place so that they could enter. Bruna went straight into the living room and Bruno waited for me.
"I'm sorry for causing so many problems, I didn't mean to-"
"it's all good Bruno, it's also my fault" I smiled avoiding any eye contact as we followed Bruna.
-"Ohh that's going to be interesting" Dani said as he saw Bruno.
"Why is Dani our friend again? I forgot about it" I said with an ironic voice and everyone laughed except Manu.
-"Why are you laughing, that wasn't very funny" she said rolling her eyes. "right meu amor?" she asked Rafinha, but before he could answer I remembered that I had to fight for him.
"Okay you wannabe singer wannabe actor I'm going to tell you something right now," I started saying as I pushed her away from Rafinha.
"don't you dare calling this man your love again, because he is my fiance! And I don't care about you being his ex girlfriend, just hold your tongue  and don't touch or kiss Rafinha again, did you understand me?"
She rolled her eyes against. I took her by her pony tail. "I asked you if you understood me!?"
-"Yes I did! Let me go!" she whined.
"Good girl, now get out, I went to spend time with amazing people and you're not one of them." I smiled as unfriendly as I could as she left the house. They were all shocked because they didn't expected me to do something like this. I breathed out loud because I wanted to do this all the time. Rafinha smirked at me and suddenly they were all clapping. I had to laugh and took a bow. Rafinha stood up, took my hand and pulled me after him.
"I'll drive her home later Sergi!"
-"Okay take care of her!" Sergi shouted after us and I just had to smile. My brother is awesome. As we entered the car I realized that his..my..our necklace hang on the driving mirror. He kept it. My smile widend even more.
"Where are we going?" I asked Rafinha smiling like never before. It felt like having a first date, but way better than our first 'first date'.
-"Tell me where you want to go" he smiled at me. I didn't thought about for a long time and told me to drive to Barceloneta.
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RAFINHAS POV
As we got out of the car she pulled me after her to a big rock. She climbed on it as if she's doing this everyday. She reached out her arm but I got on it alone. I don't know if spending time with her was right. But I really missed her. And I love her. I can't deny it anymore. I was lying to myself all the time. I never changed.  I've loved her all the time.
"I've been here a lot" she said as she grabbed my hand.
I nodded. I'm still angry about myself for breaking her heart. When she broke down I should've kissed her. And I should've cared about her.
"María I'll never be able to apologize for the things that I've done." I started saying, grabbing her hand tighter. " I never want to loose you again." I added. She nodded.
"I'm a mess without you" we both said at the same moment. I pulled her into a hug and kissed her head. I know that we both aren't ready to be in a relationship again. Not now. But I hope that we'll be ready soon. I've never loved someone as much as I love her.