They say love can drive you crazy, my dear

fifteen

Harry and I both take the day off and visit Liam in the morning. I am in a good mood, I can't wait to see my best friend. 

I knock on Liam's door in the hospital with a box of cupcakes in my hand, that were baked by Harry early in the morning. 

I go in and see Liam playing on his phone and he smiles at me but the sad look in his eyes makes my heart skip a beat.

"Morning, mate," I say.

"Good morning."

"Is everything okay? Are you feeling better?"

"Look, Louis..."

I freeze and look into Liam's eyes. Deep inside, I know that something is wrong but I try breathing slowly and calmly.

"This morning, a few hours ago... uhm. I had a CT scan," Liam begins.

I don't say anything, just nod so he continues. 

"And they found a tumor."

"Funny prank, mate" I say, hoping that is kidding.

But he looks at me and his eyes tell me that he is not.

So I close my eyes and take a very deep breath.

"Your brain?" I ask.

"My brain," Liam nods.

I bite my lips and a few teardrops run down my face when I go closer and hug him.

"Liam, look at me. Your medication will help. You'll take every single pill they give you. And you're gonna be healthy again. Fuck that tumor, nothing can beat Liam James Payne. And I'll be here for you. The whole time. I promise."

Liam nods with tears in his eyes so I kiss his cheek, sitting on the side of his bed.

"Do your parents know?" I ask.

"I haven't told them yet," he says and at the exact same moment, his mom, Karla comes in.

I immediately stand up, say hi to her and before I go out, I look at Liam and give him an encouraging nod.

Harry has been waiting for me outside, in front of the hospital. I don't say a word, I just go closer to him and he wraps his arms around me. My tears are streaming down my face and Haz hugs me even tighter. He doesn't ask any questions, we just get in his car. And I tell him everything about Liam while I sob and blow my nose constantly. 

"Harry, could you please go home?" I ask him when he parks in front of my apartment. 

"Of course. Are you going to be okay?" 

"Yeah, I just need process the things," I try to smile.

"But don't get too drunk," Harry says with a worried look in his eyes. "Are you sure that you don't want me to stay?" he asks and I nod.

So he puts his arms around my waist, kisses my forehead, gets in his car and drives away.

A few minutes later, I am sitting on the floor, staring at a bottle of wine. I haven't opened it yet but the temptation is huge. So I finally open it, stand up and pour the wine into the sink. I go into my bedroom and try to fall asleep, even though the sun is still up.

But I finally close my eyes and rest my head on a pillow that is wet from my tears and I pray for Liam before I fall asleep.