Casey's POV
"We're here" he says and turns off the car
I look around to my surroundings and then turn to look at him "We're in the middle of nowhere" I say and let out a giggle
He gets out of the car and runs to my side to open the door for me "Here I'll give you a piggy back ride" he says so I jump on his back while he walks around the woods "What is this place" I say while leaning my head on top of his "This is the place that I come to when I need to clear my mind" he huffs "We're almost there don't worry"
I pick my head up and say "Wait but I thought we were in the place your talking about already" he chuckles "Can't bring my car in here babe" I smile at the nickname and let my head fall on top of his again
We walk for around 2 more minutes and then he stops "We're here" he says.
I carefully jump down to the floor without falling and then look at my surroundings
"Oh my god"
"This is so beautiful" I say
We're in a huge field full of colorful flowers and big trees. The flowers on the ground are just a little above my knee. The sky is a beautiful blue full of thousands of puffy white clouds
"You like it?" he asks "Do I like it? I love it!" I jump in excitement making him smile. He picks me up bridal style and starts running towards a tree. He throws me up in the air and I let out a scream but his warm arms catch me when I come down.
"I'm here" he says and we stay staring at each other for about a minute and then he leans in and there's fireworks inside of me. His warm lips blend perfectly with mine, his soft touch is just right, everything that he does makes me feel loved, like I matter.
He slowly pulls away making me smile
"Come on" he starts climbing the tree
"You really are crazy" I let out a giggle and start climbing myself
"Well crazy is my middle name" he says and I start laughing "That is the worst joke ever"
"But you laughed doe" he points out
"Shut up" I say making him laugh
He sits on one of the branches at the top of the tree and holds out his hand for me so I can reach the one next to him
I stare in awe at our view of the field from up here. You can see all of the different flower colors and even some little birds flying around you can also smell the sweet nature
"Wow" I let out a huff "this is so amazing"
"I know" he says and takes my hand
I turn to look at our hands laced together and then look at his face to find him staring at me. He gives my hand a tight squeeze and leans in, I follow his actions and when our noses are a inch apart from each other I decide to speak up
"Zayn what are we doing?" I ask and pull my head away from his
"What do you mean?" He asks and looks at me questioningly
"This" I wave my hands in the air "Us" I grab both of his hands and stare deeply into his eyes "What are we? We barely even know each other and we've kissed so many times" "We are just jumping into this relationship too fast" I say
"Who said this is a relationship" Zayn says and his eyes turn a dark shade
Shit
I shouldn't have even talked
"Zayn look-"
"No Casey, I can't fucking understand you sometimes" he rolls his eyes and jumps down to the ground me following after him. He starts walking away and I run after him
"Wait pl-" he turns around and cuts me off
"First you get mad at me because I take you to the movies and don't let you pick a stupid movie and now you're basically claiming that I am or I should be in this relationship with you!" He yells making me back away from him
He walks towards me and stands just an inch away from me "Are you scared Casey" he smirks at me and grabs my arm "Are you?" He repeats
My eyes widen by his actions and I start breathing heavily
"I just-" I whisper and he cuts me off again
"You just what?" " You thought that I was going to ask you to be my girlfriend or something?" He lets out a loud and dry laugh
"You just ruined this whole thing" he yells "I try to cheer you up from your shit life and then you come at me telling me all this bullshit" "Seriously how stupid can you be?" He stares coldly
"Just get in the fucking car so I can drop you off at your house" he walks towards the car, I follow him and get in the passengers side
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The ride home was fast and very quiet. I decided to keep quiet I looked out the window for the whole time. We arrive at my apartment building
"Get out" he says and I quickly get out of the car and close the door
He drives off the moment I close the door.
When I open the door I see my mom and Imogen sitting on the couch, her holding a beautiful dress that my mom probably bought for her. She always does this, she buys her clothes and I never get anything
My mom hands me a bag that says Macy's on it "Throw this bag out" she spats coldly and just goes back to Imogen. My sister just looks at me and mumbles "I'm sorry" I just head towards the kitchen and before I throw it out I look at the receipt
She bought her a $150 dress and $80 shoes. Why does she even do it? I mean Imogen has a job she doesn't have to buy her everything. The part that makes me frustrated is that my mom always give me the empty bag so I can throw away
She doesn't give an ounce of a shit about me
I crumble up the bag and before I throw it in the trash I look around and quickly dig in the can for my cigarettes. I find them and put them in my pocket. I throw the bag away and walk to my room
I lock the door behind me change in some some pajama shorts and my All Time Low shirt. I take the lighter from my drawer and put on some music.
I begin to cry softly, letting my mascara run down my face. My chest starts hurting and I know I'm just about to start sobbing so I turn up the music so no one can hear me drowning in my own pain
I bring the cigarette back to my mouth and try to suck all the pain in but I fail terribly
Why do I have to be such a fuck up
All of this talk of getting old
It's getting me down my love
Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown
This time I'm coming down
Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again
AN//I fell down the fucking stairs and I've been in my bed all day so I decided to update. This is a shitty chapter and I'm sorry, ok that's it bye
