Secluded Affair

Chapter 9

"Yeah, Jonny, I'm ok, just tired." 

"Have I done something wrong?"

You shake your head at him, "No, sweetie, you haven't done anything wrong."

"You sure because you have not been yourself all day, and I'm worried about you. Look, I know we have only known each other a week, that's every day we have been together I can tell something is up,"

"Jonny, sometimes we have off days; what more can I say. You know how you get lost in your head sometimes; well, that's where I am right now. I can't explain it right now. I'm sorry you are worried, but there is no need, honestly. I just need a hot bath and an early night." You start to feel annoyance bubbling up inside of you.

"I'm sorry" He comes up and wraps his arms around your shoulders and pulls you in close, inturn you wrap your arms around his midriff, you tuck your head into his body. You both stand there, no one moving or talking, just being.  

Jon pulls back a little and kisses your head unwraps one of his arms, and tilts your chin up to look at him. Both of your eyes are shining with unshed tears. You stand up on your tippytoes and close your eyes and place a chaste kiss on his lips and along his jawline towards his ear.

"Don't say sorry, it's not you, babe, it's me", You whisper in his ear; you pull back and kiss him again. You feel horrible inside for making him feel like it's his fault. 

"Jon, let's go relax in the hot tub together" You see a spark of happiness flash across his face. 

You take him by the hand, lead him onto the patio, switch on the jets, pull off your shirt, and climb in. You slide back onto the seat and watch as he pulls off his shorts and steps into the hot tub; he slides next to you, puts both his arms up on the back, rests his head, and looks up at the sky. 

"Stay with me", he whispers.

"What?" you turn to face him; as he turns to meet you, he takes both of your hands in his.

"I said stay with me, be with me, be my girl", He pleads, his beautiful blue eyes becoming glassy; you see the desperation in his eyes.

"Why, why me, I'm nothing special, Jon. I am no one, just some random girl that happened to be in your villa while you were here."

"Don't say that you are someone; you are someone special to me to everyone who knows you; you are beautiful both on the outside and on the inside."

"Baby I – Fuck it, Baby.....I am in love with you. I can't bear to wake up and not have you there with me, not hearing your voice, you insulting me, seeing you laugh at something silly, just being with you."

"Jon, please don't say something you can't take back or don't mean."

"Baby, I do wholeheartedly mean it; I have never meant anything more in my life. I love you, I love you so damn much, and I can't and won't let you go."

"Jon, are you sure what your feeling is not just infatuation and lust from a summer holiday tryst, and when you get home, you will think, What am I doing? I was just caught up in the romance of it all. I need to know that you are serious, because If I drop my life for you to change your mind a couple of weeks later and I have no home and nothing to go back to. I need you to be 100% sure that this-us is definitely what you want."

"Jonny, you know I would drop what sad little life I have back home in a heartbeat to be with you, and not because of the fame, the fortune, any of that because I genuinely love you, the you who I have gotten to know, the one who makes me laugh, holds me tight, makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world."