y/n pov
i was the only person awake. it was 2:30am and everyone that was here was asleep which was obviously my friend group. my mom and dad came to visit but left cuz they had to take care of there adopted child. jordan and jessica came to but i told them to leave corey behind cuz it isn't right to have a little kid to see one of there family members in the hospital. i was just staring at him and watching his heart beat through his chest. looking at mateos face as it would twitch a bit when something would hit his face. look at how his eyes were closed even though mateo had the most beautiful eyes. i watched as my baby sat in the hospital with a closed up shot wound sat right around his stomach.
i wasn't even tired i just wanted to make sure nothing bad would happen. if i was asleep and something else bad had happened to mateo i would never forgive myself. i don't even forgive myself for what had happened. looking at him made my heart ache. looking at him made some tears fall down my face but then just looking at him made everything better. seeing that he was ok. knowing i wouldn't have to bury him 6 feet underground. knowing once he wakes up i would be able to see his beautiful eyes again. knowing i would see his smile that would light up my day. knowing i would get to see him grow up and be the man i taught him to be. knowing that i would be the grandmother of his beautiful babies.
just knowing my baby is ok
a: short one
