gabriella pov
hello! i'm gabriella samantha cosentino. as you heard my parents are y/n cosentino and kairi cosentino. i know what your thinking "the nj couple" or "the nj boys". i get asked a lot questions. "is your dad kairi cosentino", "is your mom y/n cosentino", "didn't your mom go to rehab" and a lot more. i barley have friends cuz they use me to get pictures with my family. i don't like that. i want them to be friends with me cuz of ME not my family and it's hard to come across loyal people these days but i'm used to it. you might think "wow a 10 year old goes through this stuff" and it's true my uncle alejandro rosario says i'm a strong little girl. don't tell my other uncles but tío ale is by favorite. enough about me though let's get caught up with reality.
my brother mateo samuel cosentino was shot in front of my home. the one place that is supposed to be "safe but no one is safe in this place called earth. ever since he was shot i haven't left my room only to use the bathroom but that's it. that tía mayia let's me skip school. i miss my big brother. yes he might overprotective but i love him.
my mom doesn't know or i think but i saw the fear in mommy's and daddy's eyes when mateo was on the floor with blood coming out his body. mateo looked at me and mouthed "i love you" he was scared but trying to hide it for our mom and dad. the fear in his eyes is the only thing i see when i close my eyes so i don't sleep. anyone of my family members who gets shot is my worst nightmare and it happened to my older brother, my favorite sibling. so guess how i feel.
today i decided to go into his room just to look. i snuck out my room cuz i know my tía and siblings are gonna tackle me. once i got in mateos room i looked everywhere and broke down crying again. yes again.
why?
why mateo?
what did he do?
my older brother.
might be dead for all i know.
and i'm experiencing this at just age 10.
i grabbed a picture of me and him that was in his desk. putting my finger in it while tears dropped of the picture frame. i screamed in pain then dropped holding it tightly in my arms. my screams got the attention of my tía maiya. she bursted through the door and fell with me on the floor. she held me up with my head on her arms. tears burning my cheeks.
maiya: it's ok baby
she rocked back in forth. i cried and kept hitting the floor. oh please mateo please.
gaby: is h-he b-better
i cried.
maiya: he's getting better gaby
she kissed my forehead trying to calm me down.
gaby: i w-want m-y b-brother
i screamed.
maiya: i know you do but he's healing right now
hopefully he's gonna wake up. i need him. i didn't realize that till now.
mateo is all i need.
he protects me when bullies come up to me.
yes i get bullied.
a: idk if this is to dramatic
