the girl with demons

I was a small girl in a big arcade...

We arrived home and my mum was waiting for us at the doors. She huged my tightly and I wet her blue pj with my tears. We went inside. Dad wasn't home so B came in with us. We sat down on the couch. "What happened?" mum asked in worried voice. I wasn't able to tell it again. B saw that I just can't so he told mum everything. I was sitting inside mom sat on right and B on left. They huged me tightly. For the first time I felt like I had loving and safe family. We suddenly heard somone opening the doors. I took B hand and we ran upstairs to my room and I locked door. We heared mum's and dad's conversation. He was drunk... like always. "Put this gun down" mum said downstairs. "He have a gun?" B whispered. "He have" I replied. We heard a gun shoot. I was about to open the doors and run downstairs but B stopped me. "What will neighbors think? Someone will call police" we heard mum voice. I breathed a sigh of relief. "Even if someone call I won't be here anymore... the will find just two bodies lying in the living room" dad said. "So this is his plan? He is gonn- " B cut me off. "I will not allow it" he said.

I was going down the stairs slowly. "I see someone showed up" dad said. I couldn't hold back my tears. I stood next to my mum. He pointed gun in her heart so I stood in front of her. "If you gonna shoot her you must shoot me first" I try to make my voice sound bold."So stupid" he laughed. "So both of you will die" he said with smile. "I am so sorry but not today" I said. "Why are you so sure?" he asked with this stupid little smile. "Because we are safe here" I couldn't stopped my tears. "I am so sorry... now" I whispered B knocked dad out. I didn't control the tears that flowed from my eyes. We stood in silence for a while. "Good plan" my mum whispered. I didn't know what to say. "We should leave him or... " B asked. "I think we should lie him in bed".

Because of this sick situation, I managed not to think about him for a while. When we lied dad in bed I decided to go to bed. I slowly tired to take off my dress but if I started do it, all I was just thinking about him... How he hurt me. I couldn't get his eyes off my body so I went to bed wearing a dress. I closed my eyes but I felt someone kissing my neck. I opened my eyes but the room was empty. I felt his touch and his hot breath. I tried to push those thoughts away but they came back too fast. I let a tear run down my cheek but it was a small part of the ocean of tears that I had. I heard knock on my doors."It's just me" I recognized B's voice. I stayed in silence. "Silence means yes?" he slowly opened doors. I turned my head towards the wall. "I know you are not sleeping" he whispered. "I don't know how did you know" I I whispered weakly. he looked at me worried. "It's gonna be hard...but always remember I am here for you" he said, cheering me up. I turned to face him. My face was probably all wet and my eyes and eyes were red with tears. He wiped tears from my cheek. "Normally I would have hugged you but in this case..." He always knew what to say to cheer me up. "Thank you" I whispered. "I think I know what can help you..." he started to sing our song

"Calling out for the rope Hold fast and we will Watch the flames burn on and on The mountain side Desolation comes upon the sky Now I see fire Inside the mountain...

I fell asleep although I felt his touch, hid hot breath his fingers touching my pelvic bone.,,Don't move baby" I felt his hot breath on my neck. His hot lips slowly ran over my neck and his hand slowly moved over my thigh towards my panties. he held my hands so that I couldn't move them.

I woke up out of breath all wet. I knew that was just a stupid nightmare but I couldn't stop feeling his weight on my body. B probably isn't home anymore, mum is probably sleeping after this day and daddy is unconscious in the bedroom. I've got no one to talk, I've no one to help me. I fell asleep felling his touch all the time.

I knew I would go inside and meet him there standing and laughing with another girl. What if I came back home? "There is no way! You are going in... I know it's hard but you have to face your fear" B said. "One day has passed... I am not ready" I whispered. "I know you are"...

I crossed the street and now only the door was left. I turned around once more and he just smiled. I went inside. The number of people overwhelmed me a bit. All I wanted to do was run out stopped myself. If I run through this day, he'll be proud of me. I wanted to come to my locker but it was open and some girl was rummaging in it. I couldn't see her face, but he was standing there. With his little stupid smile. I froze and I closed my eyes for moment. When I opened them no one was there. I ran to the locker and quickly opened it. Everything was just like I left it... I realized they weren't real, it was just my stupid imagination. Suddenly someone place hand on arm and I get really stiff because I felt his touch... I turned around "I wanted to tell you that we have emergency meeting today" It turned out it was Tayler. He was friend from Soase. "Thanks Tayler" I put on little fake smile. when he left I felt relieved but I don't know because he wasn't... Caleb. I took my books out of the locker, put on the hood and headphones, and headed for class. I saw him at the end of the corridor. He acted like nothing had ever happened. He was walking towards me so I quickly turned around and ran into the bathroom. I was hoping he didn't see me. I closed doors and slided down to the floor. I didn't know when but I started to cry. I quickly wiped out my tears. I stood if front of mirror. My eyes were red with tears. I washed my face with cold water but that didn't help much. Suddenly I heard bell. It meant I had to get out of there.

Lessons passed slowly because I only thought about him, about the way he touched and kissed me. After lessons I went to the meeting Tayler told me about. I wasn't paying attention until Alex (he was you know a boss of everything) called me and asked me to come over to him. "DO you know why you are here?" he asked. "I don't know exactly" I replied. "YOU BROKE RULE NUMBER ONE!!" he shouted. People started whispering and I didn't know what to do. "I didn't broke it" I whispered. "What did you say because I DIDNT'T HEAR?!?!" he asked almost screaming. "He... r-... he r-raped me" I said quietly. People fell silent and just stared at me. "Why should we belive you?" he asked more calm voice. "I-I don't know"..."You will suffer the consequences of it, but if he really hurt you ... you will be expelled from the gang, but no one will know why... Who for?" Almost everyone raised their hands. I knew my end had come. I am nobody without a gang. I was a small girl in a big arcade.