the girl with demons

Violent

I waited untill everyone fell asleep and went to The Train. That's a place in wood, there is an abandoned train standing there and my friend Matt has the best parties there but of course I'm not going to the party. I took my dad's car Ferrari 812 Superfast Matte Black. My dream car. I stopped on the dirt road next to train and got out of car "Oh bitch... WHERE DID YOU FIND THAT?!?!" Matt looked at my car "In Dad's garage... not the dead one... the new one... I know impressive" I put a grimp on my face to annoy him more. We entered The Train "THE DRAG QUEEN IS BACK BITCHES!!"he shouted as loud as he could. "Shut the fuck up or next time I will not be on your team" I threatened him and he just shut his mouth. "I need something strong... to kill my pain" I said to Matt "What pain... mental or physical?" he asked "Fuck... this and this... something stron cuz you know I'm not getting high that easy" He reached to his pocket and took out small bag with white powder "Only for queen" he said and put a little on table. I took out 100$ and formed powder in three lines. "ATTENTION GUYS... HERE IT ISTHE DRAG QUEEN... AND THE DEVIL POWDER" he shouted and everyone looked at us "Who came up with such a name?" I asked "Idk" he replied. I leaned over the table and sucked in first line. My head was spinning and my nose was burning "Fuck... that's strong" I mumbled and sucked in second and third line. "Oh god... what is that?!" I asked "Something for queen... Is it working?" Matt was curious "We'll find out" I replied. I thought about my worst days at Hydra and about Caleb but I felt nothing... as if the hydra was nothing important... caleb never existed "Fuck... IT"S WORKING BITCHES!!" I yelled "I think you are on little high" Matt announced "Maybe... a little" I burst out laughing. I looked around The Train "I think I need... alcohol" I announced. I took two shoots of vodka "God... Is there anything stronger here?" I asked "No Maddie... there is nothing stronger than vodka" Matt replied "So I'm going home... THE QUEEN IS LIVING... BITCHES" I yelled as loud as I could. I left The Train and got into car "I don't think I should be driving ... fuck it" I said to myself. I took a highway and I'm sure I was driving too fast. If I had an accident, I didn't even have a 0.1% chance to survive. I opened all the window and played ,,Violent" by carloesdaughter as lound as I could "DON'T MAKE ME GET VIOLENT! I WANT MY RING BACK, BABY, THAT'S A DIAMOND! YOU DON'T LISTEN ANYWAYS, I'LL BE QUIET!! I DON'T REALLY FEEL LIKE FIGHTING!!" I yelled louder than music. Nothing mattered at this point. "I DON'T LOVE PETER!!!" I shouted"Wait... what?" I asked myself...

My eyes were closing by themselves. So I closed them... I swear on the moment and suddenly I heard loud horn. I opened my eyes right away. I saw that I was on the left side of road and in front of me was a huge truck. I immediately went back to the right lane. I was breathing heavily. i knew that I could die... I wanted to die actually...

I woke up with terrible headache. I barely got out of bed and went to my bathroom and looked in the mirror. I had huge bags under my eyes, my skin was gray and pale. In that moment I felt sick and threw up into the toilet. "Today we are taking a day off" I mumbled to myself. I took a plastic bowl and went back to bed. I just laid on the bed and stared at the ceiling. I felt sick again and threw up to bowl. I hid her under the bed so that no one sees. I checked time on my watch. It was almost 9am "Soon someone will realize I'm gone... fuck it... i'm staying in bed"Normally I got up around 5am. In that moment I heard someone knocking at my door "Hey doll... it;s just me. I want to check on you... Are you okay?" he aksed "Yea...I'm fine. Hard night so can you tell others to let me sleep in?" I almost begged "Sure" he replied and I heard his steps away from my room. "Now finally I ca go sleep" I mumbled to myself. I closed my eyes and  found a comfortable position but I rememberd what I said yesterday... I said "I DON'T LOVE PETER!!!" and in that moment I realized that we are not even a couple. We just had sex... two times. I never said I LOVE YOU so as he. "We are not in love, are we?" I asked myself "No" I replied to myself...

"There is someone for you Nessa" Wanda yelled from the other side of door. I didn't know if she yelled sooo loud or it was just my headache "let him in" I replied "You don't even know who is he" Wanda denied it "Brown hair, white hoodie, blue jeans and iphone 11 with Guess case" I described Matt. After some minute Matt came my room and he just sighed "You don't look really well" he said It feels like a train has just run over me... The high was great... but I think I'm down right now... tell everyone not to take it and last one... don't yell" I replied and he giggled slightly "So first someone took it... a girl in your age... she died and I'm not yelling it's just headache... and for the first time I saw Maddie on high and now... you are on a really deep end" he said in the lower voice "I almost died yesterday" I mumbled "I shouldn't have let you in that car" he whispered with guilty "But I'm here alive... so be happy... And now go I NEED SLEEP" we just giggled softly and he left the room.

Next day I felt and looked liuke yesterday but I managed to get out of bed and not vomit every 15 minutes. I put make up... a lot of make up to cover my bags under my eyes and I went downstairs. "Morning sleepyhead" Nat said "Morning" i mumbled. She was clearly confuse but she said nothing more "In 15 minutes you have training with Strange" dad spoke up and I just nodded my head. "Good Morning" I heard someone voice behind me. I turned around to see Stephen but then i heard footsteps and I knew immediately who they belonged to. "I think we should start training earlier" I said enthusiastically. I wanted to skip meeting with Bucky but at the same moment he entered the room. I avoided eye contact. "We should go" I said. I felt Bucky's confused and worried stare as I left the room.

"Do you have control?" Stephen asked "Yea... sure" I replied and he sighed "How long you have powers?... I know it's not from the last time you were at Hydra" in that moment I knew that I can't fool him "Some time ago I ran away form home... but actually I didn't ran away... I got kidnapped by Hydra. I was therefor a long time but I discovered them after I escaped" I explained "Thank you for telling me truth and now I will explain... We will start with thelekinesis and energy manipulation... and The Mind Stone power's" he put the glass of water on the table in the training room "Just  move the glass from one end to the other he explained. I focused on the glass and it just moved "Well done... now break it" Strange I lokked at him slightly confused but I just broke it. Pieces of glass scattered all over the room "I don't think you have problem with that... we should move on" he looked at four sponge block arranged in tower in size of man " now just b-" I threw a blue energy ball at tower "Great... now sit down" he pointed to the mate on the floor. I sat down and Stephen in front of me. "I will think of one partcural animal and you must tell me what it is" he explained and closed his eyes. I focused and looked deep in his eyes but didn't saw anything "zebra" I said "No... you are focusing on eyes too much... try on more time. This time I didn't focused on his eyes but at the entrance to his head "Housefly" I said uncontrollably " I was actually thinkg of bee-" "But this is almost the same" I cut him off. We tried it seventeen times but finally succeeded in eighteenth. I read Stephen mind. "You know harder is with memories" he said "I know" I replied "Get into my head and find some memory" Stephen said so I focused but I only saw that he is thinking about lunch "You are thinking about lunch" I giggled softly "I know... but you must see memory not what I'm thinking about now" he replied. We tried hundred times but I failed everytime.

"So how it was?"Peter asked curious. He was sitting on the bed and I was walking around the room. "I don't know... Fine but amazing too" I said fast. I started getting dizzy so I stopped in the middle of the room "You okay?" Peter asked and I just nodded my head. Everything started to get blurry and then black.